Hypocrite? Lies?

I AM SO DAMN BLOODY, FUCKING, KNN, PISSED TODAY. CB.
Why?
READ.

* ALERT : THIS IS A HIGHLY OFFENSIVE ENTRY. SHOULD YOU TAKE YOUR OWN FUCKING RISK TO READ, BEAR YOUR OWN FUCKING RESPONSIBILITIES AND HANDLE YOUR OWN FUCKING EMOTIONS.

Zac: My dream will come true one day. Im doing it for u.. Just to let u know why i give up u for my dream & passion.
Zac: Btw, we will be happier if u show some support for me.. & we wont ended up like what we r now. Im not blaming u but to advise u not to make the same mistake for your future love's one. Take my advise a not, up to u. Its your own future. Its all in your hand.

SO NOW, ZAC LIM. WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO FUCKING PROVE?
DREAM COME TRUE? ABOUT WHAT?
DOING IT FOR ME? ARE YOU USING THE RIGHT WORD? DO YOU EVEN STILL REMEMBER WHAT YOU TOLD ME WHEN I ASKED YOU TO SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OUR FUTURE? LET ME REFRESH YOUR MEMORY IF YOU FORGET. YOU SAID : ' NOW, I'LL ONLY THINK FOR MYSELF. ' SO NOW YOU SAY YOU'RE DOING IT FOR ME? IS THAT SUPPOSE TO BE TRUTH OR LIE? AM I SUPPOSE TO BE TOUCHED BY THAT? TELL ME, WHAT'S YOUR POINT NOW? WHAT'S YOUR MOTIVE NOW?
LAST TIME, YOU LIKE TO TELL ICIANS THINGS LIKE ME AND BEVAN CHEAT ON YOU BLAH BLAH BLAH WHENEVER WE QUARRELED/ARGUED/BREAK UP. NOW, TRYING TO SHOW PEOPLE YOU'RE NICE TO ME? WHEN BEHIND THE CROWD WHEN WE'RE AT HOME, THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU DID?

NOW, I SUPPOSE YOU'RE SO GONNA GET ANGRY WITH THIS? OHH, I RUIN YOUR ' WANNA-BE-PROFESSIONAL ' IMPRESSION FOR EVERYONE? PLEASE, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? YOU SHOULD JOLLY WELL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO MY FAMILY AND IF YOU'RE THAT SENSIBLE AND UNDERSTANDING, YOU WOULDN'T BE ADDING SALT/VINEGAR TO MAKE ME FEEL WORSE. SO YOU THINK IT'S FUN TO SEE ME FEELING MORE STRESS? SO YOU LIKE TO SEE ME BEING UNHAPPY? IS THIS YOUR MOTIVE? IS THIS YOUR TRUE SELF? YOU WANT ME TO SUFFER. THAT'S ALL I SEE FROM YOU AND THE THINGS YOU SAID/DID.

' I DON'T BLAME YOU BUT JUST ADVICE YOU ' OHH IF YOU REALLY MEAN IT, I'M GLAD. BUT FROM THE YEARS I KNOW YOU, NO YOU'RE NOT. YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW YOU'RE TELLING PEOPLE I DON'T LET YOU SKATE? I KEPT QUIET. SO YOU THINK I KEPT QUIET MEANS YOU CAN CARRY ON DOING THAT? TOLERANCE HAS LIMITS I MIND YOU. I'VE NEVER, I REPEAT, NEVER SAID I DON'T LET YOU SKATE. DON'T FUCKING PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH. WELL, THAT'S ZAC ISN'T IT? AND YOU'RE GOOD AT DOING THIS KIND OF THINGS, ESPECIALLY TO ME.

I DID NOT WANT TO TALK TO YOU BECAUSE I KNOW IF I DO, MORE STORIES WILL BE COMING FROM YOUR MOUTH. BUT IT SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE NOT HAPPY THAT I DIDN'T TALK TO YOU? SO? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO? YOU KNOW MY TEMPER AND SO YOU WANNA KEEP AGITATING ME UNTIL I'M DOING WHAT I'M DOING NOW? SCOLDING YOU IN MY ENTRY FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE AND MAKE EVERYONE THINKS THAT I'M ALWAYS THE BAD ONE, THE BAD AND LOUSY GIRLFRIEND? COOL. I FORGOT THAT'S WHAT YOU'VE BEEN DOING ALL THESE WHILE. THEN OHH YES, YOU SUCCEEDED MAKING ME ANGRY AND POST IN MY ENTRY LIKE THIS. HAPPY? I SUPPOSE YOU ARE. CAUSE IT MAKES YOU HAPPY TO SEE ME UNHAPPY. ALWAYS.

IT'S ALWAYS YOU, WHO WANTED TO BE TOGETHER SO BADLY YET IT'S STILL YOU WHO WANTED TO END IT. WITH WHATEVER REASONS YOU'RE GIVING. I'M SO USED TO IT. PEOPLE ALWAYS SAY ARMY WILL CHANGE A BOY TO A MAN. BUT I DOUBT YOU CHANGED? OHH YES YOU DID CHANGE. CHANGE IN YOUR TEMPER? AND PROBABLY NOTHING ELSE? OHH AND MAYBE YOUR SIZE.

YOU ALWAYS BLAME ME FOR NOT SHOWING YOU SUPPORT ETC. BUT HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN WHAT I'VE SAID TO YOU BEFORE YOU ORD? DO I HAVE TO REFRESH YOUR MEMORY, WHICH I JUST DID THIS MORNING VIA SMS? YOU'VE GOT SHORT-TERM-MEMORY? YOU DON'T WANNA TAKE IN PEOPLE'S SUGGESTIONS AND WHEN I ALREADY MADE THINGS CLEAR BEFORE ANYTHING HAPPENS YET WHEN PROBLEMS ARISE, ALL YOU KNOW IS TO BLAME ME BLAME ME AND BLAME ME. WOAH, IMPRESSIVE. WELL DONE ISN'T IT?

SO NOW, WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO NEXT? LET ME GUESS. GET PISSED OFF WITH WHAT I'VE WRITTEN HERE AND START SPAMMING EITHER MY TAGBOARD OR MAYBE TELL ANYONE/WHOEVER YOU SEE THAT I'M DOING THIS? COOL. I THINK I'M GONNA BE SO RIGHT. CAUSE YOU'RE ALREADY FUCKING DOING SO.

AND SO YOU THINK GIVING UP THIS SEVEN YEARS RELATIONSHIP FOR YOUR CURRENT CAREER IS SUCH AN HONOUR THING TO DO? SHOULD I TELL YOU WELL DONE? SHOULD I THANK YOU FOR HURTING ME NOT ONLY ONCE BUT MANY MANY TIMES? SHOULD I ALSO THANK YOU FOR LIKE, LEAVING ME WITH SADNESS LIKE THESE? OR MAYBE I SHOULD AGREE WITH WHAT YOU TOLD ME? THAT YOU SAID STEVEN TOLD YOU TO GIVE UP CERTAIN THING FOR CERTAIN THING? SHOULD I BE PROUD THAT YOU CHOOSED YOUR CAREER OVER THIS RELATIONSHIP? SHOULD I BE HAPPY THAT, A GUY I'M WITH FOR SO MANY YEARS, TELLING ME THAT HE'S GONNA GIVE UP THIS RELATIONSHIP FOR HIS PASSION/DREAM THAT HE NEVER WILL KNOW HOW LONG IS HE GONNA BE PASSIONATE ABOUT/FULFILL THE DREAM?

OHH SO NOW, I HAVE TO BE THANKFUL TO STEVEN FOR TELLING YOU THAT SENTENCE? DON'T FORGET, ALL THESE, YOU SAID TO ME YOURSELF. EVERYTHING YOU SAID, I REMEMBER THEM LIKE THEY'RE ENGRAVED IN MY HEART. THEN I SHOULD BE GLAD THAT YOU'VE TOLD ME TONS AND TONS OF TIME THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO GIVE UP ANYTHING FOR ME? CAUSE YOU'VE NEVER AT ONCE MEANT IT. CAUSE YOU KNOW MY WEAKNESS. YOU KNOW I WON'T STOP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOU REALLY LIKE. SO YOU'RE SAYING IT FOR THE SAKE OF SAYING? AND NEXT, MUST I THANK YOU FOR FOOLING/LYING TO ME? MUST I ALSO BE THANKFUL THAT YOU'RE SO SELFISH? MAYBE I SHOULD?

IF SO, THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. HAPPY?

ALL THESE, WAS NEVER FOR ME, NEVER FOR 1.4 BUT FUCKING FOR YOURSELF!!!

ARE YOU FUCKING ANGRY NOW?
THAT'S HOW ANGRY I AM WITH WHAT YOU'VE SAID/DONE.

ENOUGH.