you won't die without me.

just suddenly woke up from sleep and had a chat with prince. it didn't make me feel better, but worse.

it's like, who does he think he is? he got stress, everyone else don't? and whenever things are not right and i'm to be blame? cause we argued an he can't concentrate? why not say he doesn't know how to prioritise? instead of pushing all the blames to me? fuck.

anyways he won't just die without me. if he will, he would have died long time ago. but no. he's got so so so many girlfriends. short of me, he won't die. and, why i should i bother? other girls can take care of him wadd. and to him, i'm always the one creating all th problems, making him stress. and i do no good at all. so why should i be bothered? nahhs, waste my time.

what plans? what future? all are just words and nothing else. if he can say i'm exactly like his grandma, then be with his grandma the rest of his life. he don't need me wadd. just the grandma is good enough.

like, whatever? i don't care. i'll lead my life, and he'll lead his. anyways i won't see him for damn long also. better, cause there'll be no chance for us to argue. see him less = less arguements = less sadness. i wanna say things like i'll miss him and stuffs. but NO! i'm not gonna do that.

*why should i be thinking of someone who pissed me off and still trying to be defensive with his stupid fucking words?

fuck everything.

go and meet whoever you wanna meet. i shall, do the same as well. for the fair treatment i deserves.