good and bad news. ^^ :(

okays. i think i shall start off with the bad news.

1. my younger cousin from malaysia passed away. due to heart infection.
reason : he got in the an accident months ago and since then he's got heart infection until now. plus, he took drugs. which is what people called the ' ice '. and somewhat result to his heart infection as well. i couldn't make it back for the funeral etc. but i've called back and informed. i feel sorry for my uncle and aunty cause they've got four children and now, they're left with two. the first child they lost was my closest cousin. he was drown in the river when i was nine year old. back then, he was only twelve. if he's still alive, he would be 23 already. hais. sad but, i can't do anything about it. like what others told me, life goes on. they would be even more upset if i'm upset. so i'll just let them leave happily. this cousin i've just lost wasn't very close to me. but since he was a young boy, i kind of pity him. cause no one in the family seems to care and appreciate him. everybody is busy with their own things, even his parents. no one cares about him. and since i was already in singapore, i can't be there for him no more. i mean, before i came to singapore, i seems to be the only one who would actually bother to talk to him, accompany him, bring him out etc. now that he's left, i hope he's happier up there in the netherworld. and instead of feeling too upset, i should be glad that he's away from all sufferings. may god be with him and guide him along the way to peace. just hope my uncle and aunty wouldn't be silly. cause the first son they lost, my aunty wanted to commit suicide. hais.......

2. my biological dad got arrested and had been sentence to jail.
reason : he was caught dealing with drugs. like, heroin etc. there's nothing much i can do about this. call me heartless or whatever, cause i don't even bother to call and ask what happen. not because i want to do so, but because i know even if i does, there won't be any changes. when i was a young girl, i tried telling him many times that he shouldn't do that. but he don't listen to me. and what's worse was, this was the cause of my parents' divorce. yet he doesn't even learn from his mistake. he don't take in people's advice and now he got himself into deep shit. no one can help him. he used to be a ' hero ' in my heart when i was really little. but as i grow older and know what happened, he's no longer that ' hero '. and he became a guy, who doesn't repent, who doesn't learn, who doesn't keep his words and full of lies. and i hated him. queen asked me not to hate him anymore since it's already passed more than ten years. but well, i can't tolerate a guy, who promised to change for the better yet goes back his words and become worse. and i can't tolerate the fact that he said queen went to be a prostitute when queen was working two jobs back then, just to give him money to raise us. and yet, he stays at home and do nothing but take drugs. he, then became a useless guy in my heart. once he apologised to me and said he's really sorry. asked for forgiveness and tell me i could hate him the whole of my life but not forgetting to go back and visit my relatives. i told queen and she ask me not to be so harsh on him. cause, he's getting old, and i won't have many chance to see him anymore. honestly, i hates him still. and i do, hates my biological grandma cause both of them are the same. talk shits about queen and spread the rumour to the whole village, making everyone thinks my queen really is a prostitute. but now, queen has been asking me to forgive and forget. she told me she no longer hate anyone of them. cause to her, they're already nothing. i'm trying my best not to hate them. i'm trying my best to accept them again. but again, they made me hate them in the first place. i know this shouldn't be happening. but, they make my queen suffered from humiliations. think, how would you feel when you know all the ' truths ' were lies. and they were about your mother?

- end of sad news -


- good news -

1. prince and princess's 6th year anniversary yesterday. (:
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY PRINCE! hope everything goes well for us! i love you as much as my queen loves me! (: prince gave me a surprise yesterday cause i worked closing and it was his nights off on wednesday. i didn't know he took off for wednesday and yesterday. and when i was busy doing closing, and tadah! i saw him standing at my store's entrance, with a bouquet of rose and a present. ME * stunt * : AREN'T YOU SUPPOSE TO BE IN CAMP??? then he walked down the staircase, passed me the rose and the present. and said, ' happy anniversary baby! surprise? ' and i was like : ' yeahs. thanks. (: ' then i gave him a kiss. ^^ but still, i asked him why isn't he back in camp. so he told me he took offs. (: so sweet! hmmm.. of all anniversaries, this is the best so far. (: is he trying to compensate? LOL. i asked him this question. cause usually when it's anniversary, i'll be the first to message him. and wish him, or i'll be the one getting present for him. but this year, it's so different. ^^ prince came to my place after that. we had supper at home, supper by dad. cause he brought home his chickens and yupps, prince love it. glad that he enjoyed himself. (: spent the night at my place, with my baby boy! hahas. we're like, one family? LOL. but really appreciate it for what he's done. thanks for all the surprise and accompanying me. thank you so much! i love you baby! and yesterday we woke up at like, 3pm? then he played dota and i continued sleeping. then woke up around 5pm, by prince. cause he gotta go home and get ready to book in. so i got up and get ready to go out. had our dinner at my house's coffeeshop. then head back to his place. left his house at 9:30pm. and prince said he's hungry. so we went to eat again! fried oyster! ^^ then i sent him to jurong east. and i head to admiralty place to meet pris love, micheal, eric and leon. (:

2. yesterday was baby boy's fifth month! (: so nice right? so many things nice happening!!! (: i wish for him to be healthier and cuter! ^^

3. yesterday was also leon's birthday! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON! 24 years old ler! hope you get all the things you want! (: head to admiralty place to celebrate leon's birthday. reached there around 11:20pm. yupps. cut cake everything... then catch up with them. and all of them had fun playing my PSP game, cars. LOL. they were challenging the grand pix mode. have to get the highest point for the total of 4 rounds. and oh! me and prince have completed the story mode! total of 18 stages to clear! i swear it's not easy man! there are stages that we had to played like more than ten times!!! now, we're trying to clear the grand pix mode. (: hahas! stayed there until 2am, PSP. and thanks leon for sending me home. (: hope you like the present. (:

- end of good news. -

alrights, yes, i have photos. but i'm not gonna upload today. cause i'm tired. and i gotta wake up early to meet prince for lunch. as he will be booking out early later! just called him to wake him up cause he gotta go for battlion runat east coast for 16km. woooo. good luck prince! (:

alrights, night k. (: upload photos soon k! ^^
training tomorrow! ^^