i'm super woman!

i just got home about half an hour again. which is, around 12:30am. -.-

i'm such a super woman, worked almost 12 hours yesterday and later i gotta be in store by 6:45am. -.- gotta leave my house at 6 in the morning and so i gotta wake up at 5am! gosh! call me god please! -.-

hahas. yesterday was short-handed. and cause zaid was tired so he was asked to punch out and go home, making it even more short-handed. :( and so i worked until 11:30pm. left cathay at 11:40pm, home at 12:30am. yeahs. i'm super woman yesterday! LOL.

my ankle is darn painful, both legs are darn tired. and my eyes are heavy. but i can't really get much rest. =/ hais. feeling hungry and whole body feeling so tired. just wish someone will be here to massage for me. anyone, i mean, anyone who's close to me and is free at the moment, which i doubt there is any.

ohh, i think i forgot to mention, yesterday was a fucking busy days cause the crowd was SUPER consistant, thus, making me even more tired. because the stupid movie ' bad man ' is showing! GRR!!

never mind, i shall ask queen to help me later. or i should just do some stretching. (: pulling my muscles. ^^ feel as if my neck and legs are breaking. standing for such long hour can kill me now. :( it was never a problem last time. hais. until the accident. i feel so old suddenly. =X

alrights. imma gonna eat and do some stretching. then gonna catch some rest. enough of being a super woman. (: hehees.

and, i'm sorry. i'm still lazy to upload photos. when i'm free k. (:

sorry ziyi, i'm not at east coast today. i bet you wanted to rant to me. but remember, i'm just a call away. (:

and TO LYNNEE; sometimes it's not about whether to think about what's the reason for me to fall for him. it's kinda complicated how we got together. and it's not about him doing those funny things to make me laugh. it's about the way he talks, the words he use to put things. the tone he used to talk. and his mentality. everything is a small thing to him. he's the one with most stress and he's always the one who's the most tired. cause whenever i tell him i also have my own stress level and tiredness, he'd just say " mine is worse than yours. " and start to compare our lifes. this shouldn't be the way isn't it? yes he did funny things to make me laugh but sometimes the slightest thing he does, actually hurts the most. yet he doesn't even realise and still wanna be defensive with his wrong doings. once he told micheal, " sometimes i say it's my fault is not because i'm at fault, i said it to make her happy. i don't think it's my fault at all. " does he even repent his own mistakes? he always feels he's right and everyone else in the world is wrong. is this suppose to be the right way? and he always expect me to be understanding towards him having stress in his camp. then what about me? i tried hard to spare thoughts for him. tried hard to get offs on fridays and saturdays so i could spend quantity time with him. cause fridays and saturdays are just so important to him. trying hard to blend in to his life, yet AGAIN. instead of him blending in to mine. what was my life last time without him? has he ever thought about it? and after i got back with him, what do i get in return? i don't expect him to give a WOW WOW WOW return. i just need him to be more understanding and take more of his own initiative. initiative doesn't mean holding my hands or hugging me. it's when he got home, the things he needs to do. why does he always have to wait till i open my mouth then he start doing? or rather, until i start nagging then he feels irritating and he does things so as to entertain me? who am i to him? his maid? his mother or what? or like he said, like his grandma? sometimes i just wonder, why should i be sparing thoughts for him? i could jolly well lead my own life and be with my friends. i could jolly well not tell him to do anything until his grandma flare up. i could jolly well work during weekends and lessen the days i could see him. i could jolly not even contact him and out with someone else. i could do so much more things without sparing a thought for him. but does he even appreciate? whenever things are wrong, things turn sour, it's always my fault. never at once he'll think it's his. i'm tired of all these. i just wanna lead my own normal life.

anyway, thanks for trying to cheer me up. i'm okays. just feeling pissed. (:

bye people, i finished ranting.
nights lovelies.
sugarrr cannyy dreamsss.
xoxo.

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