Was The ' Sorry ' Even Sincere? HA. NO.

to the particular someone, whom should know it by himself who he is when he came across this blog. i shall mention no name.

yes when i was on leave, i don't know what you've done. but i did ask the SM how was the store and is it okay. i don't wish to elaborate anything further. cause to me, or rather, to everyone, as a full-timer, you should know what to be doing.

and like you, when i just return, and saw all the mess, i did them without even wanting to comment much. the most i do is ask, why is it like that? it was to the point of time when i felt i've to do all those things whenever i'm on shifts and even after so many times of telling partners, and you, i'm still the one doing everything. i don't wanna argue with you. i don't wanna say anything else to you. and again, if all learning coaches actually inculcate all the good habits to partners, will all these even happen? i'm known for being naggy. known as a nanny in cathay. or rather, as ah lian in cathay. has anyone ever ask themselves, why am i nagging? why i am constantly telling them what to do? ha. no. it seems like everyone just comes on shift for the sake of coming on shift and getting paid at the end of the day. well, reality i know.

and remeber what you said to me at the backroom that day when you said you read my blog? ha. i doubt the apology is even sincere now. not wanting any though. no expecting anything though. like what i was told, i'm leaving. so i should just leave everything aside. and now, i actually felt better not to bother so much anymore. or rather, i'm just closing my eyes from whatever i've seen. don't wish to comment, don't wish to argue no more. just wanna work the rest of the days peacefully. whether or not the store is gonna be like now or before, it's not up to me to decide. cause, i'm leaving.

i know you're trying your best to fit into this family. i know you're trying your best to show your potentials and prove everyone your capabilities. but you need to know something, we're paid a fixed pay per month, to do more things than a normal part-timer. and we can't always tell the part-timers to do things. and in this system, we need to constantly remind. 'maintain self esteem'. sure~ that's why reminders are needed and not scoldings. i've been reminding. but no one actually bothers about my reminders, not even you. but it's okay. now, i have to keep reminding myself, i'm leaving, i shouldn't care so much anymore. i appreciate your communication with me, but it's not needed anymore. thanks.

as for opinion on your capabilities, have this little note in mind, if i, just as a full-timer of cathay thinks like this, how will your SM thinks? or perhaps, the rest of the SHM?