i'm home. yessss... actually i don't know what to write. a LOT of things happened recently. and i'm feel really vexed about whatever that has happen. i just don't feel like thinking anymore. i had enough of thinking. and i'm feeling tired thinking so much. enough is enough. i feel like letting go. i'm feeling stress. LAMESHIT!! FUCKED UP LIFE! ass..
well, what happened.. i don't wish to elaborate. it's not happy stuffs. and some of you know it. so just shut the fuck upp and don't fucking mention anymore. zac pissed me off just now and i don't want/wish to talk about it anymore. he made me do this and now i'm saying.. sorry.. and goodbye!! don't invade in my anymore. until the day you know what i hope to see in you, then you talk to me. if not, forget it. i tried so hard talking to him nicely.. end upp all he gave me was unreasonable requests. i tried to compromise with him but things didn't turn out the way WE hope it will be. and he said, we can't even be friends now. OKAY! FINE! do whatever that please you. but leave them alone. anything you wanna do, find me! NOT THEM!
- i didn't wanna say goodbye. but you force me to. i won't forget the way we're kissing.. the feeling so strong.. we've last it for so long.. but i'm not the girl.. -
okay. over for that. and enough too! i don't wish to talk about it anymore. don't wish to. after so much i've done. yet i'm not appreciated. never mind. sorry zac, find yourself a better girl. i'm not the one for you. take care always. i'll be there if you need me. but i'm sorry.. i'm leaving.. since there's no room for discussion. just take good care of yourself. this time, again, it's not his fault. i broke his heart.. tearing it into billion of pieces. i'm at fault. not him. not him...... i have many years of memories with him. almost the whole of singapore i have been with him. how not to think about him? how to forget it so easily? never easy. easier said than done. everything is always easier said than done. nothing can be done so easily. especially forgetting someone who has been with you for years. never easy. but i have to try.. no matter what.. sorry kaishi.. i'm not capable of being who you thought i would be.. i'm unable to be one.. i'm not able to be. i just proved my disability.. sorry.. i've disappoint all of you.. i wanna be left alone now. maybe not exactly alone.. but to be with people who can make me a happier person. i don't wanna be sad no more. no more sadness please... enough. enough...
okay, life goes on. i need time. to forget.. a relationship that has been with me for soo long. i've yet to tell mummy. but i will let her know soon. very soon. and i hope she will understand. school.. fucked upp.. can't fucking concentrate on my works. and there's so many things to be done. yet so little time. i'm doom. i flung all my module in the common test.. and i expected it. OHH WELL, forget it. no point crying over spilled milk. whatever shit.
no mood for blogging now. BYE!
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