weather sucks big time today. raining everywhere. isn't suppose to be summer time? why keep raining? the weather is so unpredictable nowadays. sians. i miss the breeze at east coast. i miss sliding.. i wanna go skate. :( i really wanna.. but.. hais. i don't wanna stop skating when i have time. but stupid weather is killing my mood. is killing everyone's mood. and it's a stupid feeling.. yeah i know. -.- but ohh well.. i can't decide what weather to have on what day. if i can, i'd probably put fridays and saturdays as cloudy and windy. the rest of the days depends on my mood. if i wanna sleep longer, i'd make it rainy days. -.- hahas. i wish! i really wish i can do that man! (:
but well.. the past two days i've been skating. kat, be contented.. hais. but i just wanna keep training until i get back all my strength.. well.. i'm feeling it back again. but i need to keep training in order to sustain. hais. and i won't have the time anymore when i go back to work already. :( i just hope i can have time for skating, just like last time. :( nothing else.
some photos from the past two days..
rink on thursday afternoon.
who is this ghost?
it's joon jekkkkkk! (:
look at the sky! so dark!!
but we're still there to skate.
skate until the sky is clear! ^^
until the sky is bright again! (:
she came to find me! (:
we were so hardworking!
skate until night time. xD
until sky got bored and play with jek's mp3. ( the blue light is from the mp3 )
yesterday went to peninsular with sky, javier and eddy.. on the way back.
durians.
and more durian.
and my prince gave me a super big surprise! HE SHAVED HIS LEG HAIR!!!! >.<
To Steph:
girl, i read your blog. and i cried. i felt your caring and love for me. i felt the helpless-ness you have in you. i felt the disappointment you have in me. i understand your feeling. i know your worries. i know you've always wanted me to be happy. i know all these years you've been watching what is happening. you know me best. you know me well. i don't ask for anything in return. i just hope he can be happy. and you know why i'm back to him. and now, i choose to trust him again. choose to believe in him again. i just hope he don't disappoint me anymore.. don't fail me anymore. don't let me down anymore. as you said, this is the don't know how many you saw us like this. and this is the don't know how many chance i've given him. i just hope, each time, he will cherish the chance more than before. how well can he treat me.. i don't know.. very well? i can't give you assurance my girl. cause i don't even know it myself. i just hope he can prove to you that he's not like what you said he is. i just hope he can prove to you that he's the sun who can always bring me smiles. and the smiles is not gonna be short lived. girl you know i love you all. i don't hope to see you all being so unappy each time i talk to you all about him. yes, i don't want you all to hate him. cause i don't want you all to be unhappy. and yes, i confide to you all lesser, keeping everything to myself cause i don't want you all to worry. and yes, i fear you all will hate him after knowing everything. so i choose to keep everything to myself. and you know i wouldn't wanna find you all if i can. the only time when i approach you all is because i'm feeling really terrible.. terrible until i can't take it anymore. so i wanna meet you all. talk to you all.. tell you all.. so i can cry.. cry out my unhappiness. you three have always been my biggest pillar of strength. the biggest power for me to carry on with my life. i'm sorry girl.. i guess i haven't been a very good actor. i thought you wouldn't see through my unhappiness. i thought you wouldn't see through i'm putting on a strong front. but still, you do. but girl, don't worry.. i'm finding back my smiles. i'm finding back the glow in me. i'm finding back cheerful me. but girl, forgive me. for trying hard to adapt to his life. for trying to become him. i know the reason why i play these sports and play those games are for him. cause i feel other than trying to like what he likes, there's no way i could talk to him. cause when he play, he's just gonna be so engross and forget about my presence. by doing all those things, at least he notice my presence. i'm sorry girl.. i'm really sorry to have disappoint you so much. take care..
i feel so affected by my girl. she's so disappointed with me. and she's so worry i'll be hurt again.. :( hais. i just hope she can be back to my side soon, safely.
i'm going off for now.. byebye.
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