if i could i'd start all over again.
our love is my regret.
like this song so much. (:
okays. i just woke up like, half an hour ago? and last night i slept at 9 plus at night? very tired recently. really very tired. saturday's night i slept at 9 plus also. after i came home from sembawang. but i'm still feeling very tired. :( how? gosh. i wish i can don't go back to help and sleep all days. how nice. but cannot lahhs. they really need people. okays. let me just update first.
ohh well, i'm so lazy to uodate can! -.-
okays. hmm.. don't know where to start. alright. saturday after i blog, went down to meet zhuzhu, with my whole body feeling listless and tired. :( really tired. cause thursday i only slept like, 2 hours plus? and friday i only slept for less than an hour? and i have to get up and go for work. :( only slept for 3 hours plus in 48 hours. whole body cannot take it already. met zhuzhu at sun plaza's macdonald's. ate my lunch there. and waited for lynnee to reach. then we head to the court. play there until around 7pm. then head to MOS burger for dinner. after the dinner head home with lynnee and shawn. then i'm home around 8:45pm? use com for a while and i slept like, 9:30pm. pro.. but i woke up around 1am. called zac to see if he's at home. cause he didn't message me if he's home. and wilson didn't send him home. so i was a little worry. but yeah he's home. so i went back to sleep with relief.
yesterday i woke up at 6am. then called zac to see if he's awake. cause he's going pulau ubin with the skaters. then i do my stuffs. and left house around 7:30am. work until 6pm. KO-ed. ankle pain. so i hurry home.. home aorund 7:30pm. was damn tired. almost closing my eyes when i was in front of my laptop. so i went to bed after showering and stuffs. again slept at 9 plus. and today i wake up at 3 plus. hahas. see how tired am i? LOL.
just 3 days of work and i'm almost died. can you imagine that? :( here is this week's schedule.
monday - off.
tuesday - 1pm - 11pm.
wednesday - 1pm - 11pm.
thursdy - 10am - 7.30pm.
friday - 1pm -11pm.
saturday - off.
sunday - 8am - 5:45 pm.
cool~ i'm dying with the schedule like this. seriously, dying! :( i don't wanna work until so late. hate to work until so late and i have no other time for anything else. suppossingly, i'm having offs on wednesday and thursday. and working like from 11am - 8 :30pm or opening until afternoon for the rest of the days. end up everything is just not what my store manager told me. everything just change. -.- hate this kind of situation. i'm not suppose to be working, he need to know this. and yet he put me back on shifts like, i'm already back to work. yes i wanna help them. but they seems to be taking me for granted? and shouldn't i can choose my days to work? hais. sorry.. i'm grumbling again. with work. perhaps i haven't been working and now asking me back on shifts is like killing me. gosh. i need to get back on track soon. cannot hang myself half way through again. hais. but, i'm just feeling so tired.
and i don't have time for skating. i'm so upset. whenever i'm working.. i'll be just too tired for skating, like now. no energy to go and skate. just feel like sleeping the whole day. and by the time i wanna go out, it'll be like, night time? and i don't feel like going out or anywhere lers. :( hais. wanna kill myself ah! i hate this. i wanna do things which i wanna do. i know this is everyone's wish. of course. but i can't do it now. :( and obviously, i have much lesser time for zac. which i think is good. cause the lesser we see each other. there'll be lesser things to argue about. or perhaps i should have done that long ago. then we won't be arguing so often. maybe now, with my tight schedule, it's good bahhs. no time for him, no time for arguments. then just stay this way then.
i told rick, that i wanna go back to work, make myself so busy until i have no time for him. and yes, now i'm doing it. a little upset over the fact that i have to do this to make us look better. but no choice, this is the best i can do to prevent unhappiness between us. and this is the best way to make my mind free from everything.. no need to think so much. which i think is good. i just don't wanna always think about this relationship and slowly, i'll get unhappy about it. i'm tired enough just to think about work. be it whether my ankle hurts or not, i'm going back to work. well, in fact my ankle do hurts. but i'm not gonna just stop working like this. yeah.
tired i am, but i don't wanna think so much also. okays. enough about works. -.-
recently, just feeling so tired. i just hope zac won't start complaining i'm having no time for him. cause he made me do this. quarrel until i'm too tired already. that's why i agree to going back to work. and now that i have no time for him, he better not complain.
ohh i'm meeting pris, eric and bevan for dinner later. stupid michael cannot make it. and leon too! two idiots. next time fly to perth to find him! -.- pris ask me to tell them that. hahas. especially michael. hahas. dinner at tao's at paradiz centre. cool~ never try before. hope it's nice bahhs. (:
baby, i'll miss the times we had together happily. but i'm sorry, it ended so soon and now i have to do this to make us better.
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