am i suppose to be treated this way? a tragic.

my family just quarrelled. from the oldest to the youngest. everyone quarrelled. and this is hell. seriously hell to me. i'm like, sick? and yet this kind of fucking problem is here now. yes, i'm happy that bitch (geline) is being chase out of the house. she deserve it. for her disrespectfulness to everyone at home. and i won't help her no more.

my dad hit her. right in front of me. and warned me that if i ever does the same thing to my mom, he will do the same t me. at that point of time, i was thinking. no matter how bad tempered i am, i won't hit my mom. i'm not geline. and i will never scold my mom because of my boyfriend. whereas geline, always does that. those of you who have seen my sister before. first impression she will give everyone is that she's sweet and lovely. but to all if you all's dismay. she's not. she's not as sweet as she seems to be. and she's not as lovely as she seems to be. she always like to leave good impression to my friends whom i bring home. ha. but so sorry.. they seems to have known more about her now. and i don't regret telling my friends what she has done, to my mom. and now, she left the house. andshe was crying like as if the pig is being slaughter outside the house. but who give a damn? like nobody? then my dad actually went out to take a look. and he came upp and went out again after changing. now my mom is very upset. and i don't wanna upset her further. i wanted to accompany her. but she wants me to rest cause i'm having flu. so now, i'm suppose to be sleeping. but i'll do so after blogging.

and, i'm quite displease with zac. after all that has happened just now. i wanted to call him to tell him what happened and stuffs. and i thought he should be understanding enough to know that i wasn't feeling nice. and i was expecting some console from him. but, instead of console, he argued with me. the worst part is when i told him about when my dad is angry, nobody can stop him from doing anything. yet he wanna keep telling me that " if you say i can't stop him means you're wrong ". like what the fuck? i'm just trying to tell you his personality and the consequences of him getting angry. what's the point of telling me you have the strength to stop him and stuffs? fuck it. any guy who is stronger than him can do so lahh. nobody can stop him from doing what he wants to do. if he wanna whack my sister, no matter where, what time. he will just get it done. I WANT CONSOLE FROM YOU AND NOT YOU TELLING ME WHAT'S RIGHT AND WHAT'S WRONG. IF YOU'RE IN MY SHOE, HOW WILL YOU FEEL???? think about it.

i don't have the mood to do anything else now. maybe wednesday night i'm not going st james. neither is saturday. i'm not going anywhere. i'm not meeting anyone. other than workplace, i'll be back home. i'm sick and tired of being backfired by my BOYFRIEND. you need to be more sensible to understand the situation between YOUR family and MY family. don't always think that every family is like yours. mine is NOT!

- i'm pissed.. -