i know it's time to think for myself lerx..... finally..

hellos everyone.. i'm back.. i feel much better now. don't worry about me. i'm trying to stay strong. :)

congratulation to iskandar. he passed his TP. yupps. received a message from him saying that he passed. :) congrats to him. got both car and motor license.

yupps. it has been one day, considering two for today since i last contacted him. i mean, call.. the last message was yesterday afternoon. i'm feelingg better already. thanks to nicole, mari and wilson. their support and care was there the past few days. chatting every night and message to show their concern. so nice. :) i love them.. hahas! i think tonight will be another long chat night. every night.. they try not to talk to me about him and divert my attention to something else.. encouraging to think of my works first.. how sweet. :) i know they don't wanna see me sad or unhappy.. of course, not wanting to see me cry cause that pains them as well. i know what i should do already.. i know i should be thinking of myself now.. all these years that i'm back to him.. he's my life's priority.. he's what i always thought of first and making me forget to even spare a thought about myself.. now i realised it's time to think for myself, for once. i don't wish to see all my friends worried for me, getting sad because i don't know how to prevent myself from hurts. haix. i know i'm really bad.. cause i made my friends worry.. make them sad.. sorry buddies.. so sorry..

i saw him online. but didn't talk to him.. don't feel like. haix. he said in his msn nick that he is unhappy but don't really know the reason why. but he is unhappy. don't know. i don't feel anything towards his nick anymore. i used to feel very sensitive whenever he put depressing or unhappy nick.. but now.. i told myself not to care so much. the more i care, the more i get myself hurt. i don't wanna get hurt. and i know that even when i ask him why, he'll just say nothing.. so why bother? haix.. well.. it's okays now. i know i'm wasting his time. anyone else don't except for me.

well.. i'm at canteen one now.. waiting for time to pass so i can go for skate club. :) then i shall enjoy myself today at skate club. practise for tomorrow's training.. :) hahas. i mean, practise what i've learnt last week. :) hahas. refresh my memories. :) so nice!!! ohh i miss skating.. :) hahas.

hmm.. like boring now? still got one hour plus sit here look at laptop. boring sia. hahas. :) okays. lols. hmm.. okays lahh i think i go do some works bahh. take care to all. :)