well.. finally i'm back to my blog.. yahh. hmm. i thought everything was fine the past few days. until i saw him.. i thought eveything was okays. but.. i got upset when i see him. i feel so down.. feel so unhappy.. haix.. my heart miss him already.. start to miss him terribly now..
i thought i was getting fine with life until i saw him on friday night, at rink. i wanted to celebrate steven's birthday.. but he turn up.. and i totally have no mood already.. that's why i left early.. i just can't stay there any longer just to see him.. i feel so upset and vexed.. he's totally affected my mood.. i don't know lahh.. feel so vexed..
so sick.. arghh!! feel like settling problems with him soon.. but.. he don't seems to be ready.. what should i do? haix.. his concert is on this saturday.. but.. i don't think i'll be going.. wilson ask me to ask him if he wants me to go.. but what i got was.. "up to you" "u oso no tix" "i oso no tix". then? still thick face say can ask if there's anymore ticket mehh? then i say i not going lerx lohh. mayb meet yoong king on the concert day itself to pass him a present bahh. i mean, yoong king help me pass bahh. yarh. haix. this is all i can do now.. or maybe friday.. i go his house take thing that time pass to him or what bahh. don't know lahh. depends bahh. saturday meeting nicole go sentosa. i don't wanna rush here and there. so maybe meet yoong king on friday bahh. or pass to him myself. haix. don't know lahh. the thought of seeing him makes me sad.. but the thought of not seeing him makes me miss him.. what should i do? i really don't know. it's gonna be a week since we consider 'separated'. but.. i don't know lahh. i'm told to think of whether it's hard to be together.. i mean.. so what if it's hard? i love him. that's a fact. i wanna be with him. i know i'm stubborn.. but i wanna be with him.. i need him.. i'm feeling weird without him by my side.. i'm feeling unconfortable.. i'm feeling sad without him.. though i'm feeling sad being with him.. but the feeling of not having him with me is worst.. i know he hurt me a lot.. but my heart wants him.. my heart still think of him.. arghh!! what should i do?? i think i'm ready for a talk.. but.. what about him? haix..
well.. i've no mood for blogging already.. take care people..
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