arghh.. what am i suppose to do now??? i miss him terribly......

in compro now.. missing him as well.. i'm trying hard to reach him but cannot.. feeling so worried now.. he's at chalet. i don't know what happened to him.. is he okays? or could anything has happen to him?? what's he doing now.. haix.. his phone is still off.. and i still cannot get him.. i'm feeling so unsafe for him.. i'm worried.. is he okays? haiz..

ohh godd.. please.. let me receive his call to let my mind at ease.. i need to hear his voice.. i need to know how's he doing now.. i seriously need to.. i want him to be safe.. please god.. please..........

just now saw my tagboard.. there's this anonymous.. seems to be trying to create trouble again like those ill-bred people last time.. trying to cause problems. so irritating..

haix.. as i recall why me and dada got back together again.. i was asking myself if i regret going back to him or not.. my answer is NO. and i ask him the other day why he choose to come back to me. and he say cause he still love me that's why he regret and wants me back. and i remember on the day he ask me for patch, he promised that he'll be nice to me.. treat me well. but this promise has yet to be fulfilled.. he's someone who caused me a lot of sadness, and he's the one who likes to argue with me, quarrel with me until i can't stand him sometimes. but he's also someone whom i found my happiness. he's the one who gave me hope, lift me up high above the sky but again, he's also the one who let go of me and cause me to fall badly, destroy my hope in life.. i don't deny, at times, i really have the urge to break up with him and the words are already out of my mouth.. but my heart is breaking the same time as i'm telling him.. my heart hurt so much untill i wanna cry.. he'll scold me for being a cry baby.. but does he know that he's the only guy i cried so much for? does he know? he don't. why? and he accuse me of giving him up.. but does he know that he gave me the feeling that he likes someone else? all i want him to do in our relatioship is to assure me of his love for me, his devotion for me.. but he can't do that.. he didn't do that.. what can i do to make him assure me of this forever?? what can i do? i'm feeling so lost.. so lost.. very lost.. very..

haix.. don't know lahh.. i really don't know what i should do now.. i really don't know.. i don't know.. ohh godd. i need help.. i need. sobs. okays lahh. don't wanna blog lerx. bye bye..