Anyway, just a quick update on my life bahhs. Like I said, life has been very much of the same. Woke up in the morning, get ready and met Pris Love to go to work together. Haven't been doing so for some time already. Cause I always dilly-dally thus go to work myself. It's nice going to work with her. And of course, I do know how lonely she felt when she go to work alone. Cause I too, went work alone. =\ Had lunch at temple today. Had my usual Mee Hoon Kuay. After work, I went home with Rose and Sandy. Cause they both live near me. Home about 6:30pm. Then slack at home for a while watching ' Journey To The West ' with Princess Geline and TeckTeck. Then waited for Princess JiaYi to come home and head to Granny's place for dinner. Meanwhile, Dennis, Huiyun, Huiyun's Boyfriend ( I don't know his name ) and Nicole came to my place to pay Princess Geline a visit. Then they left for dinner and Mahjong session at Nicole's place. While I play Dota and wait for my Princesses to be ready. Head over to Granny's at about 9pm. Back home about 9:45pm. Watch ' Journey To The West ' all the way until now. Am suppose to be sleeping but I just can't sleep. =x
Hmm.. I've been thinking a lot recently. About friends, family, and a certain someone. Miss a lot of friends, relatives, as well as that certain someone. So near yet so far, that's the nearest I can think of to describe my feelings now.
Friends;
Everyone have their life to carry on and not all of them can always meet up. Even with a message to ask ' Hey how are you? ' Yes it does feels nice but I can't see them. I miss my primary school friends especially. =( Met a few of them in clubs but didn't really catch up. I miss those days when we had BBQs, Chalets or maybe just a simple dinner or outing. I miss catching up with everyone of them. I've met up with some secondary school friends recently. Yes it's nice. Steph, Marie, Sherine, Mae, Jaz, Sarah, Amelia, Mabel. Yes all girls. And I've yet to meet someone deary to me, Kristeena. Kris had some problems recently and she contacted me. I'm glad she had me in mind when she's in need cause it shows that I'm still important to her. Thanks for showing that and I too, do care a lot about her. Though we didn't meet up frequently, but somehow we never forget each other. If you ask me, how many true friends I have. Yes I have, that a few. And majority are girls. Yeah in your mind you could be thinking ' Wtf Kat got girls as her true friends? I thought should be some guys. ' Hmm, I do have guy friends who are close to me and I tell them everything about my life. Probably, hmm, three? Terry Buddy is definitely one of them and of course, Ben. As for the last one, I think everyone knows who. None other than Bev. These people, are the ones I truely treasure a lot. Ohh well, Maybe you won't believe, but I don't care whether you do. Cause you're not me and you don't know me. =) Friends are the one that keep me going and of course, without them, Kat wouldn't be here today. I think only my close friends know why I said this. =) At the same time, I miss some skaters. Like, Maria, Shawn, Shyler, QQ, Jordan, Walter, Ken, Lynn, Zhu, JoonJek and some others. Miss them joking around and stuffs. But I don't really miss skating. Just miss hanging out with them. =) I don't even remember when was the last time I put on my skate and like, skate? Oh on the day I got my injuries. Haha. That's pretty long if you remember. Haha. Ohh well. -.- I miss some Malaysia friends too. Miss all the tea time at night, chatting about life and bitching about the villagers. Hahahaha! Hmm, I wish they're right here with me now, by my side. =(
Relatives;
My Malaysia relatives of course. I miss my two nephews, Elvin and Edwin. Miss Cousin Karen and all my other Cousins. =( They have not been to Singapore for some time and I wish they're here too. But no, they can't. I wanna go back soon! Go back and visit them, spend some time catching up with them and of course, going out! Though my Uncle is a little strict, but I know it's because he cares. It's not easy for him too cause he can't come over to Singapore and whenever I got myself into shit, he can only worry at the other side of this world. He can't see me, can't help me but only hear my voice. I remember when I got into my Bike accident last year, he called me on the phone, sounding so damn worried. Kept asking me how am I feeling, can I endure the pain etc etc. I know he's worried but there's nothing I could do at that time. Kinda feel like a let down. I've not let my family really not worry about me all these years. It's only recently, when life's getting better, then they worry lesser. It's a good sign isn't it? =) But yeah, I do hope that there's one day they completely stop worrying about me. =) Uncle told me ' Yen, I just hope there's someone who's matured enough to take care of you and that you're happy and I'll be glad. Woman are meant to be taken care of, remember this. ' He told me this on the trip when I had a long stay in Malaysia. It's nice of him. He's been working hard all his life, raising his kids, being a responsible father, son and a business man at the same time. It's not easy for him. Having to take care of the whole family is not easy. But at least now he shown me something. That with his determination to hold on, he achieved what his dream. =) Of course, a successful and useful dream. =) My two nephews, they're sick and I can't even see them. The thing with me is, I worry too much. =( With the swine flu cases getting more and more, I'm more worried. Both of them are still so young. Immune system is definitely not as strong as adults. But what can I do? Helpless, just like my Uncle when I got shit in Singapore. Sometimes I wished, Singapore and Malaysia are just ONE country. But how can that ever be possible? Never. Life sucks till this extend. -.- Cause of helplessness.
That certain someone;
I don't know if I should feel sad that we're like now or I should be happy that things are like that. Being a optimist, I would tell myself that Yeah things are better off that way, which I've been telling myself. Cause I don't wanna push and I'm not. =) Am not gonna be like the past no more. Things are different now. I just wanna let time prove. But I've never left. I'm just a call away. No matter how long have I not contacted that person, I'll be there when I'm needed. But at the same time, I don't wanna feel like I'm fool and being made used of. Cause I'm not like that and that's not what I want. Alternatively, being a pessimist, I'd think that we shouldn't be just like that and started getting emotional etc. But no, I'm not like that. Yes I have times when I'm upset. But soon, time will just bring that unhappiness away. Cause I believe. I read a book, it says ' When you believe, everything is possible. ' I know getting upset won't bring me anywhere but further away. Thus, I'm not. Or maybe, I seldom get upset. =) For now I've got a lot of friends with me. Friends who share good times with me. ^.^ And that's more than enough. Jealousy? Who don't have? It only depends on whether or not do you want to show/say it. I choosed to keep everything for now. Cause when you really trust a person, jealousy will get lesser. =) It's not that I'm no-feeling or what. But I trust. I choose to trust instead of getting jealous. =) I've not tell that certain someone how much I missed him etc. But I guess that person do know. Certain things, are better left unsaid. If I could choose to do one thing between us, I'll let the time tell. I don't care how long it's gonna takes. I just wanna prove to myself that he's worth it. And he really do worth the waiting.. Stubborn I am, but what can you do? I may seems like I'm making myself in a very miserable state but in fact, I'm not. =) I'm happier that things are like that now. I rather time just stop and doesn't tick anymore. I can sense that the patience I've lost back almost 4 years ago is coming back. =) Patience is all I need now.. =)
It's 2:13am.
And I suppose it's time to sleep.
I've got work later and gotta go for an interview at Clark Quay after work.
All the best to myself! =)
Ohh Queen said she's gonna help me with something. =) Hahaha. Till then.. ^.^
Some photos to end the entry bahhs. =)
Outing with Mummy Ting. =)
Mount Faber! ^.^
The view is so nice! That's Sentosa!! ^.^
=)
Goodnight readers. =)
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