sometimes.

i just wonder..

do WE even know each other totally?

no, cause knowing a person takes FOREVER.

do WE even communicate well?

no, we always end up arguing.

do WE even need each other?

it don't seems like. cause he needs his games more than me and i need my clubbing time more than him?

do WE even know what we want?

no, cause we're always lost. -.-

do WE even care about each other?

in a way, we do. in another, we're not.

do WE even see each other in each other's future?

maybe yes, maybe no.

do WE even consider ourselves as ' WE '?

are we? i wish we are. but, it don't seems like anymore.

it seems like i'm sinking back into my clubbing life. i've been back on clubpriority. all my whosgoing friends are there and i've gotten an account there since last time. it's just i don't login. and, recently, i've logging in and chat with people there. 

chatting at the chat-log there. seeing people talking cock, joking, crapping. everything seems so funny. or maybe that's the place where i found that little bit of laughter. that's what friends are for isn't it? (:

thanks whosgoing, for letting me know those people. 

sometimes i just wonder, why is always clubbing i think of whenever i'm unhappy/moody/sad? i want to find something else to do. i feel like prawning, crabbing and a lot more things i wanna do! i miss going to chong pang nasi lemak every night, i miss going to yishun dam to relax. i miss going to sentosa to suntan. i miss going out with friends. i wanna go and party like last time. i don't wanna skate. now, even skating is giving me stress. skating gave me task to accomplish. gave me missions to complete. even though we're told it's okay to lose. but, it's never really alright to lose. skating is no longer like the past. skate freely, skate when you want to. 

if i can choose, i'd rather stay in the past.

but we're not allow to dwell in the past.

hais...

i just don't feel like doing anything now.

i wanna leave singapore, that's all i know.