anyway nothing much happen.. i'm bored. that's all.
can anyone tell me,
does it really matters who initiate to go out first?
does it really matters who make time for who?
if you're in it, then go for it.
it doesn't really matter how much time you need to fork out,
or how many times you need to take just to date that person out.
all it matters, to me, i personally feel that as long as you're willing,
i'm sure that person will be able to feel your sincerity.
and of course, if that person shows no interest or effort,
then it's time to give up.
what i have learnt the past one year..
is to give up what don't belongs to you and move on with someone worth better.
no point dwelling in the happy past and getting emo shit over it and nothing is gonna turn out.
cause no one, including that person, is gonna ever pity you or feel heartache for you.
so you gotta pull yourself out from all these shit and move on.
seriously i don't find it a point to be working so hard, trying so hard when you know the person won't be yours. cause at the end of the day, you hurt yourself the most. but why people still wanna do this? weird.. the mystery love created. funny.. well, what can i say? if advices are given and people just wanna be so stubborn.. there's nothing you can do right? you can't possibly take a knife, put it at their throat and threaten them to give up right? -.-
i'm a very stubborn girl.. and it's not a very good thing. i hurt myself umpteen times because of my stubbornness.. was hurt badly, very badly. thinking bad, yes i was silly.. very silly. to think just by staying at that spot where i once lost, the same person would come back to me and direct me again. but no, it's never gonna be the same. once i thought that certain someone would come back and direct me. but no, i was so so wrong. gave myself a lot of cryings and excuses not to believe he won't come back.
but actually, all long there was only one person who has been waiting for me at the same spot cause he's lost as well. just that i didn't realise. and that someone who is waiting for me, has been trying to search me at the same time.. just that i'm avoiding him.. that's why our distance is getting further and further away.. until i realise, it was already when my heart is badly broken, badly damage. and he was there still.. to fix this broken heart of mine.. to save this broken heart of mine.. and of course, this wonderful and great person is none other than my prince! (: ZAC LIM ZHANYU!
baby, thanks for being there to watch over me all the time.. although sometimes i can't stand the way you stuck to your com or seize my PSP away from me and don't return me.. :( but really, after all that happened, i'm glad i have you.. cause all these years, you've never gave up on me.. thanks for not giving up on me. and, thanks for trying to make some changes to make us better, at last. =x hehees. keep up the good job baby! (: i couldn't imagine what would have happened if you've long given up on me.. :( really, baby, i'm glad i have you and, i love you sweetheart. =)
damn it, i'm so good at sweet talking now eys. eeeks. =x but i know prince would love it. (: cause no one knows him better than i do, right baby? (:
tsktsk. ^^
and, A BIG SHOUTOUT TO bevan beh.
thanks for the memories and please don't read too much into what i've said to you. cause both you and ben, meant half of singapore to me. (: HAHA. not the world though. LOL!
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