sometimes...

sometimes i just wish i could turn back time to when i was just a student. it'll be so much easier for me. i wish i'm going back to school. i wish i'm still studying. i envy people who's still studying now. their life so free..

not like working, you gotta fork out so much time and affords. be it in whatever industry you're working at. working just takes up a lot of time. working as part time still okay cause you can choose. but as a full timer, you get to choose nuts. -.- and that's the sickening part. =/

hais. wish is just a wish. it'll never be true if i don't plan and do it. life sucks eys. -.-

anyways, good luck to those who's taking part in the competition, SNFC i mean. has. i don't pin high hopes, but i'll do my best. after all, i'm old already. time to let those young kids take over. their pride and ego very high, everything also much win. old birds like me can just sit one side and watch already. haha.

how time flies. now my main concern is not the competition actually. for that stupid competition falls on my prince's birthday. so i'm thinking what should i get for him. -.- i think i shouldn't buy him anything. cause he didn't buy me any on mine. =/ HAHA. craps. i think he don't deserve a present from me lehhs. -.- always piss me off and make me so unhappy. plus my birthday he also never buy me anything. -.- hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......................

and also, he's flying off to thailand for his training in a week's time. next thursday is his flight. =x good luck darl. i'll take care of myself. you have fun there eys. (: LOL. i'll be good and be naughty at the same time when you're away k. HAHA. no lahhs. i'll be a good girl. ^^

and, to that person who sort of gave a warning that day. reporting your guy's whereabouts is not my duty. getting permission to enter his house is also not from you but his mom. you made it sounds as though that house is yours. note : boyfriend's house is not yours. and, i didn't like your attitude that day when you gave me that 'warning'. don't make it sounds as though i met your guy was for fuck or something. you jolly well know what i was there for. and he didn't 'report' to you, is none of my business? cause it's actually communication between you both? it's not i didn't tell him to think through things and sort it out with you. and since he treats you like this, don't you find something is amiss? both of you don't trust each other at all. this is from what i see. if there's trust, there's no need to 'report'. last time me and prince used to does that. but we don't do that anymore cause we know it ourselves what we're doing is right or wrong. we don't need frequent reminders to 'report' to each other. sometimes we hardly even have a call or message. cause both is busy with our stuffs. holding on is not a way to maintain a relationship, unless both parties really love each other deeply, not a one-sided matter. but are you both like this? do you both love each other deeply? how deeply is your deep? comments i made about you, most of them was negative because i saw my friend, from a cheerful person, became a person who's always unhappy and frowning. who would like to see their friend like that? and also cause of what you did to him last time. it's unfair and bias, i know. but this is life isn't it? show me you can make him a really happy person. then probably i can change my impression about this relationship of you both. i said all these doesn't mean i'm declaring war with you trying to tell you i don't want you as friend. but to let you know these are some of the problems i saw in you both. and it's not just one person's fault. so stop pushing blames to each other. you say he's in the wrong and he say you're in the wrong. so who's in the wrong? i don't like to see you both like this for both is my friend. think, we as outsiders will get sick and tired of seeing both black faces whenever you guys aren't happy. we would worry as well.. why make life so difficult for each other?