failed myself and team. =x

i've failed myself and the team. i'm sorry. =x but i've done what i can. so yeahs, no regrets. just feel that i could have done far better.

well, wasn't happy with that. but what can i do? and i believe a lot of people IS unhappy. not because they've lost or what. but because we felt unfair. yes, everyone say life's never fair. but we're trying to make it fairer for ourselves. yet there're little things here and there which make things so bloody unfair.

we don't organise the competition. we don't set the rules and regulations. we can't change the rules. we can't change no shit. wtf? well, in the first place, i didn't even sign that bloody paper. steven took my number tag on my behalf. well, then did i sign that piece of stupid ' contract '? like what lynnee said, that paper has got a meaning and there must be a use for it. it's not just a ' black and white ' paper. wth.

just imagine, next time, they organise a competition and we don't take part. they're just competing against SA and SE people. let's just look at the womens category, zhuzhu has always been a champion, a league champion. and if one day she doesn't take part in the competition anymore, and they took over her position, do you think that's call a win? or rather, was that even suppose to be a glory? fact is, zhuzhu didn't take part, that's why they won. and if zhuzhu did take part, will they even stand a chance to win? maybe i believe just that one girl can, not the rest. the rest can't even reach their team mate's standard. what more to say reach zhuzhu's?

this world is full of people, who are just born to make people's life miserable. ' you're not even first, why you so happy? ' fuck. at least people won something. you freaking got nothing wanna say people. somehow, the person who said this, was there just for 'show'. that's what i saw. cause it's not performing. neither did it really improve from the last time i saw it. ( * using ' it ' cause i don't wanna mention name or gender ) what it did was exactly what it does the last time i saw it in competition. how hilarious can it be tell me? self proclaiming to be good but actually nothing. actions speak louder than words. this is what i've always believe. and these people, are people whom i really called as ' miserable '. cause they don't know how to appreciate. don't know how to be a good person. don't know how to see other's good. thank god i'm not born like that. though my mouth is mean at times, but i do know how to appreciate others. and know how to spread my love around.

never mind. one day, just that one day. WE will make a come back. WE will win all. WE will be the ones standing on the platform, being announce as the winners. and wait till that day, i shall see the sore faces displayed by them. they'll never be up there forever. just you wait and see.

okays. i shall not blog so much already. it's just my opinions. i speak my mind. if you can't stand it or don't like it, the question goes back to ; WHY THE HELL YOU COME HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE? don't like, get the hell out of this blog.

remember this,

if you don't like me, i'd probably don't fucking like you either.

do not dismiss my warning else you'll regret. i'll make sure you do.


i love my team.
i love my ICians.
i love my friends.

others whom i don't love, can jolly well fuck off. cause you don't care, and i don't bother.