well.. i'm back here again. i tried to pack all my feelings and face my life happily. i made my friends worry. sorry.
to: qianhui
girl, sorry. i made you worry again. i know you all will alwaysbe there for me. but i'm getting tired. i don't know why i suddenly like that. i don't lke myself being like that.. but i can't stop my emotions. i feeling super down. i just wish to lock myself upp in a room and keep quiet for some time. but.. there's no silence. not at all. haix. i don't know.. but i'm vexed.. :( i feel very not myself... girl you know? i feel helpless now. i don't know what should i do... i know you all love me.. i love you all too... i need to get myself up.. give me time. :) take care and i love you all..
just spoke to jun feng on msn.. yupps. he told me a lot of things. 'everyone has a gift' 'and the gift should be used wisely' i shouldn't be thinking the bad side so much. life is full of miracles. i said this once. and now my belief towards this sentence fade away.. but now.. kat, find this belief back you'll be fine. :) yes i will. all i need is time actually. kat you can do it.. you have so many people with you.. they're there to support you.. they're there for you.. listen to you.. spend time with you.. and love you.. don't disappoint them.. be a better person.. like what junfeng said.. don't stay as who you are now.. :) be happy kat!! you love to smile.. so smile more!!!! :)
[ it's a promise between you and me and everyone! :))]
well.. making decisions can be tough.. but i have to make one.. in order to improve myself. i can't give up now. i have to be strong. i have to be positive. life will still go on.. whether i'm happy or sad. so why shouldn't i choose to be happy? i should choose to be happy. yes i should. i shouldn't think so much. just be happy and things will goes well. :) right? enjoy myself.. not lock myself upp.. let myself out and go freely.. :) that's what i should do mann!! :) hahas.
hmm.. friday's training.. most likely i'll be late for it bahh.. i'll be either going out with qianhui they all or going to the NCO POP with the NOCs. hmm.. well.. i guess i'll choose to go out with my girls bahh.. be it a dinner or what lohh.. just us is always nice. hahas. :) i love them so so much can?? hahas. lols. that's why they're my loves. hahas. :)lols. hmm.. NCO POP like every year the same lahh.. but go is to support only lahh.. hahas. :) lols. see how bahh.. :)
hmm.. okay lahh... maple time!! bye all.. :))
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