well.. i'm pissed.. i'm disappointed.. by many things.. zac.. IC.. and a lot a lot more. ARGHH!!!! i'm gonna explode. going to explode soon. very SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
quarrelled with my sisiter on wednesday.. and i left home on that day.. didn't go home. went to find qianhui.. and stayed over at her place.. fuck off bitch!!!!!!!! i hate my sister. she's a bitch!! a total bitch.. a loose bitch. yes she is. she's a fucker. arghh!!! fuck care her and i'm not gonna talk to her!!!!!!!! never!!! she can go to hell mann. i shouldn't have stop her when she wanna jump off the building the other time. should just let her die annd i'll have peace!!!! she should just die mann!!!! go and die!!!!
arghh!! forget about her.. hmm.. school also not very okay. yarh. exam is coming in 3 weeks time and i'm like.. still slacking? kat, you needa to put time in your stdies already.. no more playing.. actually the coming competition on the 24th.. i didn't intend to join.. i was planning to let go of the competition.. as in.. i make myself out of the competition.. by not passing the preliminary round. anyway, i won't win the competition.. so might as well just leave the competition like that? better still.. :) hahas. give the chance to other people.. lynn they all.. let others have the chance to win.. :) hahas.
i'm getting lazy.. lazy to study.. lazy to skate. lazy to teach. lazy to do everything.. yes. lazy to even maintain the relationship of me and zac. i don't know. i feel irritated by zac somehow. maybe it's the moody time now. maybe i'm having my PMS now. should be bahh. i'm mad.. i'm crazy. argHH!!!! i don't know. i don't feel like going for training. i don't feel like going.. but.. i got no choice. sians. i feel like going back malaysia. i don't feel like staying in singapore now. i wanna go back malaysia.. i miss home.. :"(
so many things cross my mind now.. zac's dairy last time.. what he wrote inside.. all his words.. hurts me like many knives is pokig my heart.. like i'm dying because of his words. whatever he wrote.. wahtever he does.. i feel so hurt now.. i feel like crying.. :( he's always making me cry.. why must it be him? why? is it because he like to see me sad? he like to see me cry? is it because each time i cry.. each time i'm sad.. he feels happy? i don't know.. he made me feel that way.. he make me feel like running away.. runaway from him.... arghh!!! so fan..
no mood to blog.. bye bye.
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