so happy.. :) my helium 5500...

well.. finally back to blogging again.. yarh.. kinda sick now.. coughing and having flu lahh.. so tired lohh.. :( so sad can?? but i'm very happy recently actually.. :) hahahahas.

especially yesterday.. :) yesterday was the test for Inline Skating Coach Certification (ISCC). it was a tough and tiring day lahh. : yarh.. i thought i would fail my theory exam.. all of us didn't know the result until last night when we're at New Asia Bar. :) guess what?? i PASSED everything.. so happy lahh can??? :) and i came in second among 34 people. :) hahahas. i got a pair of Mission hockey skate FREE!!! and it's HELIUM 5500!!!! my dream hockey skate can??? hahas. wilson part two was the first. CONGRATS!! and he got Mission hockey skate FREE too. he got A50. but he would like to change to another model i think. hahas. :) so nice huhh? :) then aloysius daniel and lastly, jason. they both got a pair of skate too. hahas. the past three days was very tedious lahh. and tiring.. but it was wonderful and nice. all of us exchanged experience and stuffs. though i don't have teaching experience, just talk lahh.. hahas. say whatever i think is right lohh.. hahas! :) OHH!!!! SO HAPPY!!!! FINALLY GRADUATE FROM THE COURSE!!!! hahas. :) woah~ after two days of being under the sun, now finally fall sick!! ERIC!! i'm sick already.. hahas. happy for me okays? lols. yarh..

yesterday when i was at New Asia Bar, zac called and ask me where am i etc. then ask me not to drink. i was like, it's such a happy occasion lahh. he wasn't here to celebrate with me and yet he scold me for celebrating. just because i drank a few bottles of beer. like what the hell lahh. so i just tell him ' you're not my boyfriend now okays! ' and i was like, damn pissed? today is my happy day yet you're spoiling my day!!! hmphh. why must he spoil my day?? so irritating. then we quarreled again. and he ask why is it until now we're still quarrelling. then i told him maybe we're not meant to be together. i sense his sadness. but what can i do?? i don't wanna be hurt by him again. i wanna be happy. that's all. but he don't seems to understand. i just wanna be a happy couple with him by my side. i called him. and he told me he wasn't feeling well. before that we were messaging. cause when i reach yishun interchange, he called me to check on me. then i told him i drank about three and a half bottles of beer and he got pissed and just hang up the phone after saying ' all you know is to lie to me ' and i'm like,???? what the hell??? i know before that i told him after i finish the bottle i'll stop but before i even finish the bottle someone else took my bottle away. then steven and darren they all is very happy. then keep asking us to drink. so all of us just drink lohh. it's a happy occasion wadd. not say this kind of moment come by everyday wadd. so i drink with them. and when he ask me how much i drink, then of course i tell him lahh. if not still tell him i didn't mehh? later he go and ask other people and found out i lie how? that's even worse right?? at least i told him the truth. he's angry and so i message him.

kat: ' i don't know why you're so unhappy about it. i'm not drunk. at least i went home earlier. aren't you suppose to be please? plus we're just friends now, yet i'm trying to please you. can you let me have my own freedon? i know how to take care of myself but you don't give me a chance to prove it to you!! '

zac: ' if u say drink means one! u once and again betray the trust i put on u!.. '

kat: ' whatever lahh can? you always want me to listen to you like as if i'm your maid. i know my limits that's why i stopped and go home okays! today is my happy day! '

zac: 'why until now we r still quarreling?.. its all because u don keep your words... '

kat: 'maybe it's fated that we're not meant to be together. it's not just my fault. ask yourself, do you understand what i need from you or not. don't push all the blame to me. i admit it's my fault to drink so much. but i'm very happy today. you're not here to share my joy and yet you scold me for celebrating? '

zac: ' don drink la..so easy. don do things i dun like can le..so simple,yet u cant do it.. '

kat: ' why is it that you can drink when you're happy and i can't? kaishi is there to watch over me as well. there's no need for you to worry about me. part two is there too. they'll definitely control me if i'm drinking too much. today is one of my happiest day and everyone is here to celebrate with me except you. yet you're the one who scold me so much when darren etc is so proud of the achievement i've gotten for myself. all you know is to spoil my day is it? '

zac: ' you should call me ask can drink more or not..not lying to me..pls..i wan this relationship very much..i scare of losing u,this is why i bother so much.. '

kat: ' since when i lie to you? i actually meant what i said. but darren and steven is much more happy then me until they keey asking everyone to drink again and again. it's not that i never tell you how much i drank right? i told you don't i? if i wanna lie to you, then why must i tell you? if you really want this relationship then you wouldn't be mentioning break so easily again and again. this is not the first time already. you know or not? don't test my tolerance. '

zac: ' im just very concern abt u!.. but u seems not appreciated.. den why am i making myself so worry?.. did i waste all my effort? '

kat: ' i know you're worried that i'll be taken advantage but there're so many people whom you know there, why can't you let me do what i want? i'm really happy today you know or not?i'm not saying you wasted your effort or what. i appreciate them all. but you still haven't learn when not to control me yet. '

zac: ' i dono wat to do le.. im going mad one day.. '

kat: ' go mad? for what? you've always been a strong guy. don't because of me and you make yourself so weak. i believe you're much stronger than now. '

zac: ' i jus need u in some way.. i wan being loved by u!.. '

kat: ' to find someone who can love you is easy for you. there're so many girlsout there waiting for you. i'm not the girl for you but they might be. '

zac: ' that means u don even bother to cherish me..nvm..no need reply le... '

kat: ' it's not i don't cherish, i want you back. i wanna be with you. but you can't assure me of the way you're gonna treat me next time. i'm scared you see? '

kat: ' sorry. my words may be harsh just now. i'm getting emotional. '

and i didn't receive his reply after that already. so i called him upp to ask him how is he. and he told me a lot of things. he say he wanna patch. he want me to go back to him. he don't wanna separate anymore. and he thought the separate i meant was two or three days thing. and now it has drag on to almost three weeks already. and we talked for quite a while. somehow we argued and quarrel again?? haix.. i don't think we can ever talk things out nicely bahh. how can we talk things out? i don't know. i feel very vex whenever i try to think about me and zac. i don't feel like thinking anymore. not at the moment. not now. i will think.. but not now. definitely not now. i don't know lahh!! ARGHH!!!! so irritating. can't i just enjoy myself now? can't he leave me alone now?? so frustrating!!! ass. GO AWAY!! ARGHH!!! so irritating!!

haix. why must he play around with my feeling? why must he play around with my moods??? this is so so so so so fucking irritating!!! i hate it mann. haix. okays lahh. drop this matter bahh. i should be happy de. should be happy that i came in second for ISCC. i should be happy that i got the hockey skate that i wanted all along. i should be happy for my achievements. :) hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. errr. i don't know lahh. okays lahh stop here for now lahh. take care to all. :) bye bye.