what should i d? i feel so vex..

haix~ back here today. at 12:46pm. listening to "my happy ending". in ngee ann, having a two hours break. at canteen four. feeling sad. unhappy. insecured. haix~ i need an answer now. i need. i really need. haix.

yesterday dada told me that if he can get rid of me, he will do that. i feel very sad about this. very sad. and disappointed. very. don't know how to say.. but.. i'm really bothered by this. this bothers me the whole day and i'm seriously feeling low over this. what should i do? if this continues, i know it'll affect my studies sooner or later. it dfinitely will. haix.

okays. tomorrow going to the skate club to see see. see how's it like. if i don't like then i'll just join band bahh. anyway i still have commitment for band mahh. not as if i don't like band anymore. yupps. haix. now i'm thinking if i should continue to stay in demo team or not. i wanna continue. but once i bought dada the seba frame, change everything, i think dada is ready to use twister. but i've yet to buy my crossmax. plus now no stock lerx. have to wait now. don't know must wait until when lohh. haix. the sliding competition is in august. i don't think i'm ready for the competition lohh. how to take part? haix~ argHHH!!! don't know lahh. see how bahh. if my hand fully recover already then i'll practise hard bahh. but if my hand not okay then maybe i'll not go lohh. but steven say all must go lehh. never mind. i think steven is understanding enough bahh. hahas! :)

spoke to kaishi on msn just now. told her about me and dada. then she say from what she thinks, dada has got another meaning for saying that. which was he can't let go of this relationship easily. i understand what she mean. cause i'm like that. haix~ don't know lahh. so vex about this. hao bu rong yi we can get bacck to be as happy as last time. now this kind of thing happen. haix. so sad.. sobs.. kaishi ask me to ask him some questions, which i think i want to find out too. yupps. will do that soon....

haix~ what will happen to us in the end? i don't know. haix~ okays lahh. i don't know what i wanna do lerx lahh. stoning lahh.. take care to all. :)