i kinda feel sick already.. haix~

err, lols. yahh. today is such a tiring day. days have been quite happening the past two days. at both cineleisure and paya lebar runway. but both are tiring days. though saturday cineleisure didn't really perform, more of like giving out the activade products but.. what can i say? or rather what can i do? steven is the instructor, he has the right to choose the best performers to perform. i know it myself i'm not a good skater. but.. it's okay. though it's kind of demoralising cause i can't perform.. but i accept the fact that i'm not up to standard to perform. so it's okays. *well, anyone, any skater, including steven, people from IC, please.. don't talk to me about this issue anymore. it's over and i don't wanna rake up the past. i'm just blogging down my feelings for that day. i don't mean anything. this is just to keep my friends updated about me.*

well, as i said. i enjoyed both days. and both days are happening. especially paya lebar runway, to me lahh. it's kinda fun. :) hahas. it's my first time going for the runway and it's so nice. :p alternatively, both are tiring. it's kinda saddening that dada didn't get to attend the cineleisure performance. he should have gone. he's such a perfect skater (in my eyes. hahas. :) ). such a pity. haix~ too bad he gotta look after the shop. well, honestly speaking, i feel kinda like.. left out in the group ever since i injured my hand. like.. i'm no longer that involved in their activities. maybe i think too much but.. that's my feeling bahh. perharps i'm too sensitive towards anything that happens around me and words coming from anyone's mouth bahh. haix~ don't know lahh. or maybe i'm seriously under stress until i think too much lerx bahh. exams are coming next week and i'm still like.. don't know anyything?!?!?! arghh!! all that is in my mind is skating? and mummy is kinda getting damn pissed at me for always skating?? dots. sians lahh. if i were to choose between two. i know my heart wants me to choose skating. but i know mummy surely won't allow me to quit school just like that. it's like.. i've studied for so many years then give up like this is so wasted. but...... i lost interest in studying!!!! this is real. this is fact. i don't know lahh.. feeling so vexed. so vexed. haix~ what should i do??? so many people yearn for the chance to get into poly. but i want to get out of poly now. how weird. arGhh!!!! i wanna go back malaysia. i hope holidays come faster.. i can't wait to go back malaysia. really can't wait!!!! :) mummy is going back to malaysia on friday. sians. so sians.

woke upp late today. end upp meet classmates at 10am at Macs. yupps. then study COMPRO there until about 12.20pm. walk back to school for EECAD. yahh. then lesson until 4pm. go and meet Ivor with Sam and Guan Cheng. go atrium study COMPRO until 7.45pm. Ivor teach us until he hmself also kinda 'sehh' lerx lohh. hahas. then go home. all that is in my head is COMPRO!!!!!!! damn sick of this module lohh. it sucks. the lecturer also sucks. arghh!!!! i love wednesday!!! but wednesday got COMPRO common test! Ohh shit ohh shit ohh shit!!!!!!!!!!! irritating. i think will fail arghh! i find COMPRO so difficult. i hate COMPRO. seriously hate it to the core mann!!! i love EG1. hahas. EG1 rocks. hahas. :)

miss dada today. didn't talk to him much. cause he sleep early afternoon. arww~ then.. don't know lahh. recently like PMS lahh. i mean the both of us lahh. like so on and off lohh. haix~ hope dada won't always keep things from me bahh. i seriously feel very helpless when i see him upset and i can't do anything. so sians. like i want him to tell me his feelings and thoughts?? so at least i know how is his life now mahh. whether he's happy or sad. troubled or not. so i can feel at ease and won't think so much. but why can't he understand this? haix~ always don't wanna tell me and keep quiet.. so frustrating sometimes. arGhh!!! hahas. afterall still okays lahh. :) hope everything goes well bahh.. tired lerx.. nighty nights everyone.. wanna orhh orhh lerx.. nights dada. love ya always. muacks. huggs.

hahas. a new tagger in my tagboard!! => Simong!!! :) huggs...