lonely.

why do i feel so empty?
why do i feel so lonely?
why?

why it's just right after we've come to a decision?
why make me feel that i'm going to be all alone to go through all these?
why?
when i told you all i ever need was you to go through that with me?

why it seems like all your changes for these while was not for me, but just that something?
why make me feel that i wasn't what you really cared for?
why do i feel i'm being made used of?

why do i feel so not important anymore?

where have all your gentleness gone to?
where have all your caring gone to?

why do they disappear as soon as we came to a decision?
why do they vanish just within a few hours?

now tell me,
what do you really want from me?
who am i to you?
do you even care about me all these while?

and so,
after all that we've gone through,
i'm just nothing as compared to your hobby.
i'm nothing compared to 1.4.

before i sink into mentally depression,
you've already pushed me into the hole of devastation.