tears is taking over me.

12.51pm. zac just finish messaging me.. this is what we talked. before that was he send me a message yesterday..

zac : i know it's over but.. happy 57month anni.. stay happy..

kat : glad you know it's over. so no need to say to me. chloe won't like it if she know.

this is what i send him last night. and just now he reply me saying..

zac : she wont mind. i told her im still thinking of u.

kat : so what? just leave me alone and be with her.

zac : ok. wont bother u anymore. but still hope to meet u up for a drink. hope everything will turn up good to u and me.

kat : what do you mean by good for you and me? do you know one rule of dating another person is not to even mention your ex? it's because of you, now i lose bevan. why are you still so insensitive? i won't meet you anymore in the future, other than seeing you at rink.

zac : sorry my fault. i apologize for that.

kat : no need. i don't need anymore things from you. just don' ask to meet me or whatever anymore. take care and bye. no need to reply.

and it ended here. zac make me feel that he's playing with chloe though. but whatever it is.. i don't care. he shouldn't even be contacting me right now. i made it so clear. and i hope he know what i really wants now. and after the third message i reply. i throw myself into a pool of tears. cause that's what bevan said to me. it's because i told him i still love another guy when i was with him that's why he gave up. i couldn't stop my tears. my heart hurts so much. if i could turn back time right now. i wanna go back to the moments that i told bev i still love zac. i wanna tell him i love him instead. if i had been more sensitive.. this won't happen. and if i had been more harsh to zac and allow bev to called the police that time.. this will not happen. bev.. i'm sorry. but what can a sorry do? it can never turn back to the time when me and bev is so close.. so loving. it will never..

okays.. time to dry my tears and get ready for work. bye all.. it's 1:06pm now.