I feel so tired after working so long..

hmm.. i've been feeling very tired recently.. ohh god. don't know why. maybe cause i've been working all day long bahh. :( sians. i earn very little the last month lohh. sians. :( all i know is work now. and also to call the hundred over schools to look for their HOD of PE department. haix. : like whatever? i've been saying the same thing over and over again lahh. super irritating lohh. have to tolerate the attitude of the staffs. fuck lohh. :

holidays is going to end very soon.. and like.. i still haven't know my result and time-table yet. super sad lahh. cause mummy haven't pay the school fees. :( lols. hope she'll give me the money soon. then can see my result and time-table. hahas. :) hehees.

yesterday krazeric off from camp. then i went to meet him. yarh. go out lahh. then go home around 11+pm. and he decided to send me home. lols. but he don't feel like going home. so we stay under my block and chatted almost for two hours. damn funny lahh. he's tired but he don't wanna go home. like what the hell? where got people like that de? he say he won't be able to sleep if he go home. then we stay under my block for almost two hours. until around 2:30am. then i say i wanna go home already. late already wadd. then i'm feeling tired. so go home lohh. hahas. :) reach home give zac a call. then talk and told him about me went out with krazeric. then he got jealous. and he's pissed. lols. but luckily i'm able to stop him from his anger lahh. lols. :) at least i'm able to now. kekeke. thanks krazeric.. had a fun and wonderful day with you. * kepp making me smile okays?? :) *LOVES* hahas. so nice of him. actually if i didn't go out with him, i'll be sleeping at home lahh. hehees. go out at least i can have some fresh air. zac work until very late and he reach home like, 10+ at night? yarh.. hahas. :) pity him actually. he's under attachment now.. supposingly, he need to work for only about 8 hours. end up he have to work for 10 hours. yet his pay per month is only $450. haix.. i know i shouldn't say so much. but normally if he work like this for a month, he'll earn more than what he's getting now. don't know lahh. don't know why is it like that. kinda feel a little unhappy about this. >.<

nowadays, going to the office is like stress for me? feel so not myself whenever i'm there. i understand that action wants me to take over skate school stuffs. but it's kinda like far too much for me to take? i tried very hard to do my so that i can meet his expectations of me. somehow, i think because i missed my ICICP then he start to be baised. or rather have prejudise against me. i don't know. leonard is also stressing me by keep questioning me about the statics in teaching. the one that he wants me to say is ICICP's way of teaching, but what i've learnt is ISCC's method. end upp i always got scolded and i'm like, what you expect me to do? i didn't go for ICICP. i was sick on that day. how am i suppose to go for the course?? i'm already very upset about my absence for the course. yet they still keep harping on the issue. stress started aince the day i missed my ICICP. i finally understand how aloy feel whenver leonard and action use ICP to suan him. the feeling sucks to the core. i don't like at all. but in IC, we have to have our status to be able to talk. i'm just a lower ranking staff. who the hell am i to actually talk? all i do is keep my mouth shut and listen. there's nothing much i can do. it's so irritating. but what to do? i'm in no position to talk. so i have to leave everything to fade. that's it.

well.. i don't know when i can feel happy, always looking forward to go to the office like last time. but it's definitely not for now. i feel stress instead of happy. : all i know when i go to office is to make the no-ending calls. answer call and computer work. woah~ face computer until my eyes cramp lohh. : lols. i remembered zac told me not to overwork myself. must always get enough rest. but now, i hardly get to rest lohh. super sians. everyday like sleep that few hours only. can't sleep at night and always end upp playing harvest moon. lols. ohh yarh, talk about game, i remember i begin to train my mage at cassoipea. is it spell this way? don't kmow. yarh. now level 22 already. hahas. zac helped me to train lahh. he train me on the first day i started playing again. then i levelled four levels in about an hour time. hahas. super fast. hehees. :) hahas. :) then he help me train after i logout.. levelled seven levels in ten minutes. hahas. pro. hehees. yupps. guess how?? hahas. :) lols. yarh. i wanna play mage lerx. my warrior is far too slow to level already. super sians lahh. hahas. :)

hmm.. okays lahh.. i wanna go and do chores already.. mummy nagging. then need to sleep early. need to wake upp early later. :) goodnights. take cares to all.. *LOVES. *muacks.*