Start Of Happiness?

Or a beginning of Worries?

i have this feeling it's gonna be both. hais.

anyways, i rot at home... -.- the whole day... eat, watch tv, sing karaoke, watch tv, eat, sleep, wake up, watch tv, eat, watch tv, and now, blog. -.- and of course, not forgetting upload photos.. TONS of photos. LOL. haha.

today marks the day Prince is finally, officially, out of 30 SCE. yeahs, and it marks the start of my worries. hais..

nothing much happened today, other than Pris Love asked me to be her sister on her big day.. HAHA. sure!~ of course help her lahh! her one and only big day in this life.. definitely gonna make it a very memorable one for her wadd! ^^ okays, time to squeeze my brain juice to think of how to play around with eric and get big ang pao! =) LOL!

you know, it's nice seeing friends falling in love, getting into a relationship and finally, see them walk the red carpet and ' dang dang dang dang ' the wedding bells ring. how nice right? =) i'm not saying i introduced Eric to Pris Love, but i'm glad she found her life partner herself.. A guy who treats her well and would really take care of her for the rest of her life. Till death do them part.. i watched them from friends, becoming couple and now, gonna get married soon. seen so many things happened to them.. happy and unhappy.. but they all walked through them.. which i'm very happy for them both. =) hopefully, they'll have an addition to their family soon! =)

sometimes when i be someone's bride's maid, sister or even attending my relative's wedding. i have this deep feeling in my heart that always console myself, i'll become the person on stage with Prince soon. seven years of relationship, so many ups and downs.. yet... hmmm...... not because i don't wanna settle down. but my Prince have yet to proven himself to my family. my maternal and Biological dad's side.. he have yet to proven himself to my Queen that he can take care of me, how can he even prove himself to my Paternal side? what more to say, when my Paternal side are well-known-quite-rich family in my hometown. my Queen doesn't wanna me to be in a situation whereby instead of having blessings from everyone, i'm a mockery of my Paternal side.

Of course, i know my Queen would definitely support me.. but Prince needs to prove himself to the rest of them.. my Uncle, my Aunt, my Granny.. everyone of them.. and not just my Queen. cause at the end of the day, i don't want Prince and I to become a mockery of everyone. I want blessings from everyone. hais.. to me, this wish of mine, will never be fulfilled in the coming years i guess.

Pris Love asked me what i want for my 21st Birthday.. my wish list, i've yet to think about it. but i hope, one present i hope that would be given by my Queen.. is a NEW HANDPHONE! =) i wanted a Samsung Omnia at first.. but Wilson says the phone is not very good i suppose? and i tried playing with the phone.. it's very lag! -.- so i shifted my target to iPhone. like what my uncle's friend said, iPhone is very selfish one. cause it don't like to share.. that's why don't have bluetooth.. not even infrared. -.- well said isn't it. but iPhone is nice! =) hahaha. and i quite like it. LOL. well, that's if my Queen can afford it. if cannot, what can i say? =( i just want a new phone! =(

my birthday is like, just two and a half months away? it's not very far actually.. -.- but i don't know what to do.. didn't even have plans to celebrate? i don't know.. damn! GRR.

i feel so lethargic. -.-
probably it's time to sleep.


WARNING : IT'S THE TIME OF THE MONTH! DON'T OFFEND ME, IN ANY WAYS.