yeah. gonna be away from cathay for three weeks. will be attach to plaza singapura. cause cathay's gonna expand. becoming a higher volume store.. i'm send to plaza sing to be train to adapt to high volume store.
cathay's gonna be under renovation from 10th march. ready by 1st april.. with outside seatings. meaning, smoking area will be there also. i seriously wonder how it will look like.. by the time i'm back to store it should be ready. gonna miss cathay so much. my lama! :( gonna miss my lamzoco soso much. :( plaza sing use verismo. hais.. pros and cons. byebye cathay..
failed my coffee master challenge (CMC) paper one. but i heard i was close to passing. -.- requirement to pass is 90%! the paper itself is 151 points. freaking a lot lahhs. i can only afford to lose 15 points. -.- haisss. quite dishearten actually.. but i myself know i'm not very ready for the paper.. so it's okay. dzul ask me to go for the next CMC. which is in may.. but by then, am i still in the system? maybe? maybe not? hais..
not feeling happy today. though i keepup the lively composure during work. but once i reach home, i know it myself i'm a different person from work.. peharps cause i'm leaving store and is gonna miss store so much. yeah.. it's one of the reasons. missing someone badly.. missing bev so badly until i'm feeling unhappy.. haven't talk to him for two days. on the phone i mean.. well, maybe i'm too used to talking to him on phone already. bad habit bad habit. wondering how is he now? is his first day in UNI okays? what have he done today? hais. i don't know. he didn't reply my messages. peharps he's too tired and he's sleeping already. cause he's not online either. so i think he's sleeping bahhs. lastly, cause my CMC. hais. don't wish to talk so much about it anymore. sad.
thinking of leaving team elite.. haven't been attending the trainings. and people blaming me for giving excuses for work. claiming i went out etc instead of work. don't wanna be stress over the team stuffs. and steven did state that he needs commitments. yet i can't give him now. too much involvement is needed in store now. i can't fork out much time. even when i'm off, it's not training days. hais. so hard to compromise... i'd love to stay in the team.. but i can't give my commitment now.. maybe after i change job then i can have the time bahhs. HAIS..
one week one day. bev left for 8 days already.. still trying to get used to not seeing him.. yeah.. though 3 months is not long.. time flies people says.. but with him not around it's just pass so slow.. 8 days seems so long to pass. 8 days seems like 8 months. hais..
now is not the time to talk about relationship.. it's time to concentrate on my work and excel in it. to prove to someone i'm much capable than what i am now. someone once looked down on me cause of the CERT i'm holding is only Os. but i'm gonna prove that i'm better than what just an Os is. i'm gonna get my diploma.. my degree.. just you wait and see. work and save money.. work and save money!!
ten years down the road, i'll be what i wanna be.
to my dearest kristeena darling :
sorry kris darling.. about my tagboard.. i'll stop everything.. ignorance is bliss. i'm not hoping for anything anymore. i no longer hope for the return. no longer hope to see the backview of him. pinning no hopes to get back. no faith anymore. no trust anymore. it's an empty shell. hollow inside. left with just memories. good and bad. pinning no hopes to see the smiles i once saw. no longer yearn for his hugs and kisses. no longer yearn for his warmness. no longer yearn to be beside him. no longer yearn for his gentleness. nothing. yearning for nothing. only hoping each day is happy and so is his. only hoping for peace. no hatred no nothing. i just wanna be who i am and lead my life happily. that's all..
done with what i wanna say.. dishearten. missings. worries.. hais..
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