had been busy working.. and the number of times i go club is much lesser.. super much lesser. can you imagine kat not clubbing for a week? maybe last time it's some kinda a weird thing.. but ever since i started work.. i club like, once in two weeks? or maybe not even anymore in the future. hais..
yesterday was kris and bev's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTEENA AND BEVYY. good luck to whatever you all do.. (: hahahas. all the best too. (: hmm.. yupps. bev's having exams now if i don't remember wrongly. hashahas. (:
anyways, back to zac for two months already. everything going smoothly.. just that sometimes when i think of the past.. i get emo.. and was feeling upset.. yarh.. even until i will still feel upset when i think of the past.. but what to do. what's done can't be undone. me and bev is a past. so is him and chloe. i shouldn't care so much. i shouldn't be bothered so much. but still, i fear of being cheated.. though zac did a lot of things to make me feel comfortable with him.. forget about his wrong doings. but i still feel uneasy.. cause somehow, i find it hard to accept him again.. for what he has become and who he is now. he's been sweet and nice to me. i can sense and feel that.. other than not being happy about me going to club.. nothing special. we're a happy couple if nothing goes wrong. zac has done a lot.. to cover up what he has never done for me in the past.. spending his time with me.. showering me his sweetness.. being attentive.. being caring and not neglecting me. all these are nice and sweet.. but.... how long can this sweetness last? there are times i felt really emo and i cried.. worrying about stuffs and wondering if i'm doing the right thing. plenty of confusions and i don't know how to handle them. i hope i could really handle them well with zac by my side. yet somehow he didn't help but add on to my worries. i know sometimes he's very concern about me.. but.... he's concern sometimes is too over until i finds it hard to accept. hais.. quite a lot of times i thought of giving up this relationship. but zac.. i was soft hearted towards him i can say. seriously soft hearted. i can't bear to see him sad.. can't bear to see him hurt. and this is my weakness. that's why again and again, i go back to him. even though i tried hard to hate him for whatever he's done. but seeing him feeling sad stops everything. whenever i see him sad, i just feel like giving him a hug and tell him everything is fine.. i'm here for you.. this is me..... gosh. like a freaking emo fuck. what the hell.. nevertheless, i still love you sweet! (: you're booking out soonnnnnnnnn! saturday morning.. i shall fetchy fetchy you darl! (:
some photos first.. i'm gonna meet terry up to get my ipod usb. :(
how long can this sweetness last?
little connection... (: editted it myself.. (: hope PABY will like it when he sees. (:
when will we be a clearer couple?
-a couple that has no secrets?-
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