Hellos. Back lerx. Haiz. So many things happened. I am so sad!! Discover someone like HER!!!! SOMEONE WHOM I NEVER EXPECT WILL BE LIKE HER!!!! I am so damn the hurt now. Feel like crying. Sad sad sad and sad!!!!!!
Haiz. All these while, I thought other than her, I will be able to get rid of all the liars and idiotic asshole in my life. I thought after HER, no one else would be like that anymore. I thought everything would be fine. However, it didn't turn out the way it is 'suppose' to be. i'm so hurt. Another person. Whom I trusted, betrayed the trust I had upon the person. I give. I want to give up. I no longer want to trust anyone, anymore. I no longer want to share my problems with others anymore, other than my Kris darling and dear, no more. Please scram, all the liars and idiots, fuck off!!! I hate youu all to the core, don't walk into my life, get out of here. I hate youu all, I hate youu all!! I never want to speak to youu all, I never want to see youu for another time, scram, fuck off, I don't give a damn to who youu are, where youu're from, just leave miee alone. I don't need liars as friends, I don't need all these assholes as friends. Youu can find yourself the best asshole ever, but not in miee. GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND LEAVE MIEE ALONE!!!! that's it!!!!!!!!
Because of this, miee and dear nearly broke upp. I hate all those who gave miee these problems. there's only one person who gave miee this bullshit. And the person knows it very well. I hope that person will wake upp soon and shut the fuck up and stop making upp stories that will kill people!!!! Just simply, I HATE YOUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haiz. Got very vexed recently, over studies, over watt dear had said, over friendship and teachers. Feel so damn fuck upp. Feel so hurt. My heart, torn into pieces, shattered into thousands pieces. Billions of needles poking my heart. It is so painful. So unbearable. Scolded by dear cause he thought I neglected my studies but has he ever seen miee trying to work hard for him? Has he ever notice all the things i have done, just for him? Does he know how teachers demoralize us when we are in school, does he know how sad I was when I am in school? Does he know I don't even feel like going to school nowadays? Does he know that school is totally hell for miee? Does he know I need more care and concern from him? Does he know he needs to be my motivation in order for miee to move on? I know when he asks miee to study, he meant well for miee, but I need more than this from him. He's not ordinary person to miee, he is someone I need very much. Can he be more understanding towards miee? Can he try to console miee when I need him to? Can he? ('':) sobs. I doubt he can. I doubt so. Sad. Sad. Haiz.
Tomorrow is band's BBQ lerx. don't know if I should go or not. Kris darling say she might not be going, it is so boring without her joking with miee, Haiz. If she can be there, everything will be great lerx. Everything. Though dear said he would be able to pei miee but I guess he would not want miee to stay at the pit de. Haiz. don't know laa. So sad nehx.
Okiee laa. Have to go lerx. Take care peoples.
Haiz. All these while, I thought other than her, I will be able to get rid of all the liars and idiotic asshole in my life. I thought after HER, no one else would be like that anymore. I thought everything would be fine. However, it didn't turn out the way it is 'suppose' to be. i'm so hurt. Another person. Whom I trusted, betrayed the trust I had upon the person. I give. I want to give up. I no longer want to trust anyone, anymore. I no longer want to share my problems with others anymore, other than my Kris darling and dear, no more. Please scram, all the liars and idiots, fuck off!!! I hate youu all to the core, don't walk into my life, get out of here. I hate youu all, I hate youu all!! I never want to speak to youu all, I never want to see youu for another time, scram, fuck off, I don't give a damn to who youu are, where youu're from, just leave miee alone. I don't need liars as friends, I don't need all these assholes as friends. Youu can find yourself the best asshole ever, but not in miee. GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND LEAVE MIEE ALONE!!!! that's it!!!!!!!!
Because of this, miee and dear nearly broke upp. I hate all those who gave miee these problems. there's only one person who gave miee this bullshit. And the person knows it very well. I hope that person will wake upp soon and shut the fuck up and stop making upp stories that will kill people!!!! Just simply, I HATE YOUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haiz. Got very vexed recently, over studies, over watt dear had said, over friendship and teachers. Feel so damn fuck upp. Feel so hurt. My heart, torn into pieces, shattered into thousands pieces. Billions of needles poking my heart. It is so painful. So unbearable. Scolded by dear cause he thought I neglected my studies but has he ever seen miee trying to work hard for him? Has he ever notice all the things i have done, just for him? Does he know how teachers demoralize us when we are in school, does he know how sad I was when I am in school? Does he know I don't even feel like going to school nowadays? Does he know that school is totally hell for miee? Does he know I need more care and concern from him? Does he know he needs to be my motivation in order for miee to move on? I know when he asks miee to study, he meant well for miee, but I need more than this from him. He's not ordinary person to miee, he is someone I need very much. Can he be more understanding towards miee? Can he try to console miee when I need him to? Can he? ('':) sobs. I doubt he can. I doubt so. Sad. Sad. Haiz.
Tomorrow is band's BBQ lerx. don't know if I should go or not. Kris darling say she might not be going, it is so boring without her joking with miee, Haiz. If she can be there, everything will be great lerx. Everything. Though dear said he would be able to pei miee but I guess he would not want miee to stay at the pit de. Haiz. don't know laa. So sad nehx.
Okiee laa. Have to go lerx. Take care peoples.
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