Sleeping. -.-

i've been sleeping the whole day today. -.-
i guess i've tired myself from the past few days.

i've waking up like 8:30am in the morning, with my eyes wide open until late night like 2am? wow! like about 18 hours? -.- yeah then i get that about 6 hours of sleep everyday. i've been helping out at my uncle's saloon.. seeing him handling all the customer etc.. and i've been watching 一公升的眼泪. damn sad. those who haven't watch, WATCH IT! =)

and the female lead somehow inspire me about fighting hard in my life. ^^ and also, i'm gonna cut my hair like hers! =) a little longer than shoulder length! AWESOME! =) my hair is gonna be light! =D actually wanted to do plait perming. but my uncle say my hair too thick so it won't be nice doing that. so i dropped that idea. ahaha. so probably i'm gonna cut, reborn and dye my hair. a darker blonde this time i guess. too bright and i look too ah lian. -.- HAHA. so yeahs, new year, new hair, new look. everything is new. can i have a new relationship? LOL! kidding. and see! i told you, i can't follow my resolutions. -.- i said i wanted to be a nice to prince and yet now i'm thinking of having new relationship. -.- wth... HAHA. i'm joking lahhs. if really look for new relationship i'd long done that. why need to wait like going-on seven years? wth.

a lot of things have been passing through my mind.. what if my appeal doesn't get accepted? what if i can't continue my studies? what if there's a lot more things coming my way? what if this year is another 犯太岁? for two consecutive years i've been. -.- that's why for the past two years my life is having a lot of ups and downs. even when i'm trying hard to do what i'm suppose to be doing and just follow them well, something is bound to happen. and last year i even had accident. -.- left myself with an ankle that's no longer as good as last time and a scar on my face. though i'm not very pretty but tell me, which girl can fully accept themselves for having a look like this? honestly at first i did mind a little. probably because i was shock and never have thought this would happen on me. ohh well, it happened. and i'm facing it very possitively shortly after. queen said she wanted to bring me to some lazer thing or whatever. i said i don't want. i don't mind having that scar. i don't mind walking around with that scar even though there will be a lot of freaks looking at me and being a kepoo, wondering what happened to me. -.- the eyes from the public is unbearable at first. but everything falls into places after a while. =) it's just a matter of getting used to it. of course, having that scar can be something good or bad i think.. good because you've a learnt a lesson in life. bad because you'll have that scar on forever. maybe it'll fade away.. but time is all i can say now.. it's almost one year already.. but my scar still look the same. so i actually don't put in a lot of hopes anymore. =)

one thing i've learnt in 2008 ;
never to put in hopes on things/people that/who doesn't even benefits/care to/for you. -.-

okays, it's a little complicated from the way i said it. but it's true and this is what the society is changing everyone into. do things that only benefits you = being selfish. -.- how nice this society is. cruel. but we have to be like that in order to survive. -.-

okays, let me wish everyone to be able to do that. HAHA.

it's getting late, i'm gonna sleep. =x
1am already.. LOL!
goodnight!
update soon! =)