i'm still dead.

yes. kat is dead. long time ago. lifeless. everything seems meaningless no more.

not getting any better. not thinking of anyone anymore. i'm serious. already let go of the one far away. since this is what the one from far away have been wanting. yes. i've let go. maybe it's unbelieveable. but well, i did.

yes, the one near by is coming back. not just one. it's like, so many of them and they're getting scary.. maybe what DM said is right. the power from pris's necklace is passing to me. -to be a queen and be loved by people. and to meet someone who really loves me.- well, maybe it's working on me. -.- getting too close until it affects me? -.- LOL. cool~

but one by one.. i'm rejecting. DM ask me to choose slowly. since there's so many of them.. just choose slowly. but i'm not the type who likes to give false hopes. ohh well.. see how things goes.. if really cannot then cannot. no point letting them wait. HAHA. so please, stop asking me if you stand a chance. if you do stand a chance i'll let you know, someday. hahahahaha. friends is good enough for now. (:

who say kat cannot find boyfriend? hahas. can lohh. (: just that i don't want one.. i feel that i'm not ready yet. before i get myself hurt again, i rather stay as who am i now. i don't ask for anything more. i just wanna be happy. and i'm happy now.. with my friends around me. and my friends AREN'T GANGSTERS! they may look fierce but they're nice people. so, to SOMEONE, STOP USING YOUR RETARTED BRAIN TO JUDGE MY FRIENDS. such a jack ass. stupid.

well.. leaving a simple life.. still on cast. the fucking cb doctor put back the cast for me. knn. actually take out already. then put back. idiot. i was like, scolding the medic and stuffs lahhs. want to cry lohh. i'm worry about my june's asia pacific comp. i want very much to go for that comp lohhs. :( well, i cried actually. for a while.. then i hold back my tears. hais.. somebody kill me please. i really don't want to miss my asia pacific.. :( hais....................................

kat's sad.. kat's down.. kat wanna cry.. kat wanna scream.. someone hug me tightly please.. let me cry out loud please.. let me your shoulder please.. skating was my life.. and i'm like, so far away from it. so near yet so far.. every friday i go down to east coast to see the skaters. but i can't skate. hais.. omg, so kat do have her weak side. hais.. i'm a girl afterall.. hahas. (:

okays.. i shall stop here. before i gets more emo..