feels like saying STFU. but have to consider his feelings. talk to him just now. on the phone. was then arguing about me failing to meet him tihs morning to accompany him to see doctor. cause i was really tired. slept like, 5am.. and need to meet him at 11am. the day before i didn't sleep well. like, can't you let me rest? i don't wanna argue with you about not meeting you or what.i'm sick of all these. i wanna be freed from all these, like when can i???? ha. a couple that always quarrel over the slightest thing. like what the fuck? i don't like to be questioned.. i don't like to be controlled. why keep questioning and controlling me? can't i have the freedom to do what i want and think what i want? craps. really craps. life sucks.
sometimes i just feel.. single is the best. to be attached for many years ( not married ) makes me feels tired. why must we be 24hours together? makes no sense to me. why can't we do what we individually wanna do? OMFG. nuts, i'm going nuts. really nuts. help!
are we really not meant to be? or are we not suppose to be? craps. am i not being a nice girlfriend? am i such a lousy one? why? i have my temper and stuffs. i have my own personalities. i feel so tied up. feels like shouting out loud. feels like screaming.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(:(:(
FORGET IT. I'M NOT GONNA SAY ANYMORE. IRRITATING.
just chat with lev. he's at sentosa house with his family.. i've got things to pass him. so i guess i'm meeting up with him soon. yeah. wanna catch up with him too. and see how his family members are. especially baby chloe. she was so small when i last saw her. hais. wonder has she grown taller, fatter or skinnier? don't know. but i hope all of them is well and good. (:
okays. that's all for now. i'm going out to meet skaters. update soon. (:
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