CHRISTMAS EVE! merry christmas eve! well, I'M WORKING. merry working KAT! -.-
went back to malaysia with mom and cousins on thursday's morning. and celebrated my baby boy's first birthday. so fast.. he one year old already. took some photos with him. he's so adorable. i'm so gonna love him! and i BET. he's so gonna be the ONLY one who won't HURT me emotionally. YES. I hearts HIM! my baby boy. photos up later. (:
faith gave all of us christmas cards. feel so sad after reading her card. so touching. i miss her. :( SO SAD LAHH! upload the photo later. i took the words she wrote. :( though she transferred out. but we know she still misses us.. :( so emo.. sad.. hais. shall visit her soon. :( she's the first manager that touches me so much. and makes me feel like staying here for her. and now she left.. i feel like following her. but i know she won't want me in her store now. cause dzul just got promoted. she will want us to stay and help him. well, for her, i'll listen to her. :(
went down to IC before i go for work yesterday. to collect my christmas present from steven and vivian.. (: so nice of them. i got a necklace. so sweet. (: haha. LOVE THEM ALL! i shall wear it in front of him next time. (: so he'll be happy! (: yay! hehees.
anyways, saturday zac went to cathay to fetch me from work. it was a surprise. and he surprise me with my favourite blue rose. 6 of them in a bouquet. so sweet of him. * seems to be like he did something bad then trying to coax me.. -.- * NO lahh. kidding. but it's nice of him.. thanks darl. but i feel bad.. cause.. my mind and heart is confused. and he's still trying so hard.. i felt like a devil. really.. :( naughty katty. smack smack. :(
anyways, had store meeting yesterday.. freaking 4hours long. fuck. but okays lahhs. paid to go there and sit down. -.- LOL. and they're talking about me as the only full timer left.. my responsibilities and stuffs. asking me to go for learning coach workshop and to get my coffee master by february. well, okays. time to brush up and study. -.- work also must study.. cool ehs? yeah yeah.. envy? JOINME! (: haha. okays. i'm startin to feel stress.. afraid i won't be able to cope. afraid i won't be able to handle. afraid i can't perform well.. struggling.. within myself.. what to do? how to make it better? what should i do? i kinda feel lost in everything i'm doing.. work.. relationship.. friends. family.... i'm worrying about my family.. worry about my work. this two are my main concern now. i'm having a family problem.. which is not gonna be so easily solved. and my work is giving me more stress.. everyone is pushing me. i feel the stress.. just because nazhimah is converting to part time.. and my expectations are rised too. i have to be at tip top condition. everything i do, must be PERFECT. nothing less than that. i have to keep reminding myself.. i have to i have to.. STRESS! i'm going nuts. :(
people, don't add on to my stress.. don't provoke me. i'm leading a stressful life right NOW. when i say i don't want, DON'T force me. when i want, DON'T stop me. let me do things my way.. let me handle myself.. don't worry about me. i know some of you is out of concern.. but i know what i want for my work and family. so don't advice me on this two matters. maybe other things you can. NOT this two. thanks. stay away from my work and family matters. thanks.
okays.. i guess i'm wrote long enough. photos time! (:
MY BABY BOY!!! (: <3
MY NEW HAIR! (:
THE ROSE I GOT FROM PRINCE. (:
I HAVE A BABY ' GIRL' YOU DIDN'T KNOW? NOW YOU KNOW. (: hahaha.
FAITH'S CHRISTMAS CARD!!! :(
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