Sorry, Blame It On Me
As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for
I'm sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect
I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my son
I'm sorry for the fact that I am not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to call you my girl
[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me
[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me
Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry your life turned out this way
I'm sorry the FEDS came and took me away
[Bridge]
I'm sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
Enter 21 you know the club they say
Why doesn't anybody wanna take blame
For rising back out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame
Even though the blame's on you [3x]
I'll take that blame from you
And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
meeting terry after work and my current work place..
RANDOM PHOTOS.. all my memories....
well, yarh.. uploaded some photos.. hahas. random ones that i found in my computer.. my baby boy's photos gonna be upp soon. (: he's six month old already.. so cute.. hahas. wish he can be in singapore now.. wanna hug him to sleep.. wanna play with him.. hahas.
anyways, just got home from work.. did a lot of thinking the past two days.. and agreed with what eunice told me.. so does nicole and ana.. they've given me lots of chances. and it's time i wake upp and not disappoint them anymore. it's time i concentrate on my work now instead of my night life, though my night life ended for quite some time.. i got kris into unneccessary troubles. sorry love, i'm really sorry.. i've caused troubles to everyone.. i won't do it anymore.. give me some time to discipline myself.. i'll repent.. i seriously will.. cause.. the main reason why i'm working to stay in singpore is not just because i don't wanna go back to malaysia.. i don't wanna leave my mom.. i don't wanna live without my mom.. she's important to me.. and asking me to go back to a place which i've for ten years.. i won't be able to adapt.. i won't be able to get use.. i don't wanna leave singapore.. not for any reasons.. and there isn't any reasons why i should live this place.. i hate malaysia.. even though i'm malaysian.. i can go back for holidays but not long term staying there. i'll die staying there.. that place is not meant for me.. i know it myself clearly.. this is the will for me to stay in singapore.. and i will not let myself destroy it anymore.. i'm gonna wake upp from my dreams..
so here i'm gonna say, I WON'T CLUB UNNECCESSARILY ANYMORE. UNLESS IT'S SPECIAL EVENTS OR GATHERINGS. OR ELSE I WON'T ATTEND. NO MORE UNDERAGE PARTIES. WORKING IS PRIORITY. but still, working's priority is lower than bev's! lols. hahas. but i guess bev don't want me to be affected by him bahhs. hahas. alrights.. bev, i got your message. (: you're the most understanding guy ever! lols. okays.. i'm talking to myself.. -ignore me..- living in my own world i guess. hahas. yarh.. my own world of 'meandhim'. hahas.
okays.. now i feel better already.. hahas. for the past few days.. i didn't go skate.. meet upp with terry on friday after work.. had dinner then go home.. suppose to celebrate steven's birthday at east coast.. but it was raining.. so i went home.. :( sorry moomoo.. i'll give you your present.. i promise.. (: i'll buy you.. a.. MOO.. hahahahas. (: lols. ehh.. yesterday was at home the whole day.. supposingly was to go clubbing with bong.. cause he finally booked out.. but thinking i'm working morning the next day.. i dropped the idea. see, i so guais now. (: hahas. hehees. lalalas. then sleep the whole day and have enough rest! (: end upp at night cannot sleep.. hahas. but thank god this morning can wake upp for work.. if not i die.. hahas. tonight gonna sleep early lahhs. tomorrow working 7:30am. lols.
alex kor kor's birthday chalet is this monday to thursday.. tuesday is the barbeque.. i wonder if i should go.. cause i'm working until 10pm on tuesday.. 14 hours shift and working 7:30am the next morning.. so i think i might not be going.. anyways.. i'll put my schedule for next week later.. (: hahas. quite xiong lahhs. but okays bahhs. working life.. can't blame.. only can blame myself for not continueing my studies.. hais.. now wanna go back to study also very hard lahhs. no financial support.. if have arhhs.. i'll confirm go back to studies lohh.. now have to depend on myself.. do a little saving and study private next time.. (: yupps. i wanna take at least a diploma.. yupps. (: if can, university also i wanna study arhhs. hahas. i've always enjoyed studies.. but i'm lazy.. hais.. my weak point.. -laziness. -.- used to be hardworking.. but don't know why end upp like this. sians. hais........
hmm.. i'm gonna eat etc.. then get ready to sleep already.. tomorrow working morning.. need enough rest.. update tomorrow bahhs.
schedule for 2 july - 8 july
Mon : 7:30 -3:30pm
Tues : 7:30 - 10pm
Wed : 7:30 - 2:30pm
Thurs : 7:30 - 2:30pm
Fri : 12 -4pm
Sat : OFF
Sun : 10 -6pm. (thinking of changing it cause going over to JB with mom..)
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