after that, went to play pool. spent like an hour or so there.. played quite a lot of match.. and i lost!! =_= hahas. when it wasn't my turn.. i sat at one corner.. looking at them and my phone. reading the messages that bevan sent me. from the ones he sent me last time.. to the one he sent me yesterday.. i was quite moody when he sent me the message. so when i reply him.. i was quite harsh..and i think i hurts his feelings. so after i calm down.. i said sorry to him.. hope he's feeling better now. :)
and also, because of jun ming.. bevan and i seems to have some misunderstanding.. so i told jun ming that we shalln't contact. and he told me a lot of things. so i thought not to be totally mean.. and i told him we could still contact.. but not more of calling each other. and contact lesser. and he say if this is what i've decided.. he'll respect my decision. and i told him my girls will always be with me.. no matter what happens. then he say okay.. yupps. that's about me and jun ming for now.
after pool.. we went to east coast.. steph and hanifah went to gelare.. i went to the rink. skated for a while. then steph call me.. tell me that hani cried.. ask me to look for her. so i went to the beach there to find here. lucky enough. i found her sitting there alone.. sobbing. i went up to give her a hug. and ask her to tell me what happened. but she refuse. so i tried to divert her attetion to something else. but she don't seems to be listening to me. :( then she wanted to burn her hand! and lucky i saw..i hit her hand.. then no choice.. cause she told me she want to try skating.. so i ask her if she wanna skate.. then finally, we left the beach and head for the rink. then i help her with the skates and teach her how to skate. and finally, i saw her smile. :) hahas. she had fun and she DIDN'T fall! how nice! :) hahas. cause i'm her instructor! hahas. :) then steph and xin yan came to rink and find us. time to go and drink! hahas. :) but hani was still skating. then i ask themto wait a whle more. let hani skate first. then they wait. after about half an hour.. hani seems exhausted. then they left for the beach first. i stay at the rink for awhile more. then hani came to find me and we go to the beach together. :) by then was 2am. hahas. lols. then.. drink.....
after drinking.. went to mac and i bought food.. take away.. cause steph need to go home already.. house calling. then four of us share cab together. i went to stay over at steph's house last night. reach her house.. while she's bathing.. i'm eating. :) and.. SHE BATHE SUPER FAST! ohh my god. =_= hahas. then.. ermm.. after eating i go and bathe.. and see her do her work a while.. then i go back to her room and lie down on the bed.. looking through all the messages.. happiness.. sadness.. everything is there. haix.. read a few of zac's messages. haix.. don't wanna think about it now. zac change his msn nick.. to " if you give yourself a second chance, you will still be my only one. " well, obviously he's trying to say something.. but i choose to ignore now. yarh.. ignorance is a kind of release.. release myself from stress. yes.. so i'm gonna ignore now. :)
maybe i shall say bye to all the things that i've been thinking of.. bevan.. zac.. everything.. i should just enjoy myself now.. and treat both of them as my friends. :) yarh.. i should.. maybe i'll be happier that way.. and sorry to both of them..
bevan.. sorry.. only now then i realised what you meant by hard for us. also just i realised you already know what will happen that's why you made that choice.. yet i was blaming you for being harsh.. mean.. sorry about it. well, so i'm telling you.. i won't wait for you.. i'll live my life as per normal.. and remember.. i can also always be there for you, as a friend.. :) like what you told me. and i guess, this is enough. hope you find a good girlfriend soon. BUT! i won't forget you.. hahas. :) cause you're someone who brought a lot of laughters. i'll remember you.. for that! thanks ASS! hahas. take care always and don't smoke so much since you're coughing a lot. study hard and all the best for your year 12! JIA YOU! hahas. you can make it to uni! =D hahas. thank you so much for bringing back my smiles. :) i believe even without you, i can find back my smiles.. by myself. :) thanks anyway.. it's wonderful being with you for this short period of time. i'll treasure those moments. :) and i find that it's nice to actually look back at the past. at least the moments are sweet and nice. :) thank you plenty plenty. :) hahas. so yeah.. take care.. :) =D =D
zac.. sorry for being nasty to you.. i know you found my blog.. and has been reading it. well, it's okay. i have nothing to hide from you.. but like i said.. each time you read my blog, you'll write some shit in yours. oops. sorry about it. i'm kinda pissed. at your blog. yupps. well, my anger won't last. i don't know why.. but my anger towards you won't last.. but i really hope, for now, we can just be friends. and i hope things will be better of this way. :) i can still be there for you.. but only as friend. i'm sorry to tell you this. but i doubt it's possible for us to get back together now.. cause for now, i seriously think it's not possible. both of us have bad temper, and it's hard for us.. not about distance.. but character wise. right now, i'm choosing anyone. so stop saying things about bevan in front of me. if you're gonna do that.. sorry zac.. pardon me for not talking to you.. and i read your blog.. if you wanna hate me and bevan.. i can only tell you.. there's nothing we can do also. i won't purpose do things that will help to stop you from hating me. but if hating me makes you feel better, go ahead. like your msn personal message says, we'll meet if fate cross our path. fate has left us.. for now.. as for future.. i don't know. i won't ask you to wait. live your life happily. even as a friend, i hope i can bring some happiness to you. so yeah.. take care.. see ya around in the rink!! :) and please arhh.. i want my lightning's wheels back!! hahas. :) thanks.
okay! i'm done.. with the two guys.. and i have something to annouce!!!!!! MY MUMMY JUST BOUGHT THE FUCKING N73 ME!!!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!!!!!! shit her. hmphh!! hahas. never mind.. i will change to it one day. or maybe just buy the phone only. :) hahas. i'm quite happy with my current phone. it's nice. and i like slide phone. :) yupps. hahas. ohh well.. i think i need to upload some pictures. :) that time i went back to malaysia.. i took a lot of pictures. hahas. well, now is 2:55pm.. i think this post will be publish about an hour later.. causei'm gonna upload my photos now!! hahahahahas. :) yo my photobucket. :) yuppies. :)
yarh mann!! HERE COMES THE PHOTOS!!! =D
my uncle's house.
hahas. dying my hair! :)
the baby boy. one month old already!!!!!! =D so cute.
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